Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

Bloody Coma

//Victoria's p.o.v.://

My parents tussled me again - but even harder. The only thing I saw was blood and flinders. I CAN'T STAND IT ANY LONGER!!! I locked myself in a room and cut me everywhere and I began to cry. I need help, my parents are psychos and I will be one. At this moment my mood changed and I destroyed my room. I saw even more blood and I became aggressive. I began to scream - I lost my control. Now I thought of Brian. I cried even more when I looked at my body. What did I do?! I am a monster! A motherfucking monster! The whole time I hammered against my walls and whispered:"I am sorry Brian...I am so fucking sorry..." Now I had the feeling that I lost my interest to live. I know Brian would be there for me but... I can't stand it any longer. I went in my bathroom and took a look in the mirror for the last time. With my blood I wrote:'I am so sorry Brian'. Then I sat in my bath and let the water in.
I took my razor blade, dived in the water and began to cut me. After a while the water was red and the last thing I saw was the long deep cut on my forearm.

//Brian's p.o.v.://

I stared on the ceiling and thought of Victoria. I am a bit worried about her after what she told me. I wonder what she does at the moment. Well I am definitely happy that she'll spend some nights with me.

Suddenly I heard sirens. Why now??! I looked out of the window. I saw the ambulance driving in Victoria's house direction. Now I was a bit scared and my worry about Victoria was bigger. I creeped through the house and opened the door. I held my breath - the ambulance stopped at Victoria's house. No....that can't be... I ran to Victoria's house. I saw her parents crying and....she was lying in a stretcher - her body was covered in blood and cuts. I could really cry now. She...she was a psycho too. A motherfucking psycho. I hoped she isn't one of them but...she is... I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned around. My parents stood behind me. "Son what do you do he-...?" I interrupted my father:"We must drive to the hospital." I wanted to go to our car but my mum stood in front of me:"Why? Tell us, what happened?" "...Come on. I will tell you while we go to our car." We walked to the car. "Is it because of the girl, son? Your mum told me something about her." I looked at my father. That was a bit embarrassing. Who knows what my mother told him. "You love her, don't you?" Mum asked me. I said nothing. That's very embarrassing. That's one reason why I hate my parents. "Son, it's okay when you love someone." My father smiled a bit. "Yeah well..." I said and entered in the car driver's side. My father sat behind me and my mother next to me. When the ambulance drove I had the feeling I floored the accelerator. "Brian, drive with less speed! Don't kill us!" I don't care about that now, I must be with Victoria.
We stopped at the hospital. I saw Victoria with the medics, the doctors and the nurses. Then I saw her crying parents. On the one hand I am sorry with them because Victoria is an angel amongst the jerks but on the other hand I could kill them! They were the reason why Victoria did that. I know it! We went into the hospital and stood next to them. Her mother looked at me:"You are this guy Brian, aren't you?" Wtf?! That was creepy:"Uhm...yes?" Victoria's father looked at me very angrily:"So you are this boy?! You are the reason why she did that!! She wrote your fucking name on the mirror - WITH HER BLOOD!!! WITH BLOOD!!!! Do you know what you did?! She's a totally psycho, did you know that?!!!" He began to cry. First I said nothing, then:"You think I am the reason?! You really think that?!..." He interrupted me:"Why else should she write your name on the mirror?!" Her father screamed a bit. "As may be the case because I wanted to help her and you not!! She told me what you did to her! She cried because of you! She fucking cried!!! You don't know how desperate she was!!! And that's because of you and not me!!!" I went outside. I can't stay there any longer. Now I understand Victoria. Her parents are odd or...weird.

I felt a cold hand on my shoulder. My mum... "Brian... Do you want to come in? The doctors are there." She took my hand. "...Okay..." I said. We stood behind Victoria's parents. We all looked at the doctors. The doctors didn't look very happy:"So...uhm..." One doctor looked at Victoria's mother:"Your daughter lost very much blood and...her cuts are very deep, especially on her veins and arteries but she's still alive." I was so happy. She isn't dead. Her parents cried and smiled at the same time. " Thank you for that. Thank you so much." Her mother smiled. The only thing my mother did was embracing me. And my dad clapped me on the back. "But... she's in a coma and her condition is critical so...there is no guarantee she survives that...I am sorry." A doctor said. Fuck! Fuck!!!! Victoria must survive! I had the feeling I can't live without her. And if she crooks then I will crook too. Like.... Romeo and Juliet. Wtf?! Why do I know that? Whatever. "Can we go to her?" Her mother asked. "Of course. Room: 014." One doctor said. Then we went to the room. When I saw her I held my breath. She was so....wired and...her pulse was very low. I think she'll die. I had the feeling I would cry at this moment. I must go... I - I can't see this any longer.

//Jeordie's p.o.v.://

Yesterday was a very nice day. I mean, okay, I am not a smoker but the day was nice. But I wonder where Brian is? He never was so late in school. Hmm...and Victoria wasn't there either. Where were they? That's very...odd. I walked around the school yard and saw him on the smoker nook. What does he do there? And where is Victoria? I went to Brian. He looked very sad. Ou...that is not so good I think. "Hey Brian..." His look was very depressive... I would say. He said nothing. That was very unusual for him. "Is everything okay? Or...is anything with Victoria?" Brian looked at me with tearful eyes. Ou...anything happened to her. "What happened Brian?" I asked. "She'll die Twig..." He began to cry. Oh no.... "W - why? What has happened Bruh?" I was very worried about him. I never saw him so emotional. That was horrible. "She wanted to commit suicide.... Her whole body was covered in blood.... Her cuts were so deep.... I know she'll definitely die." The only thing I did was embracing Brian. He needs it:"Do you want to go to her after school?" "And then? I will only see her half-dead body and..." He cried even harder. "I think you should do that. I read people who are in a coma can hear the one who speak with them." I said. "And what does that do for me? She can't answer me anyway." He is so desperate - I don't like that. "It doesn't care. We'll go to her and then you speak to her!" In general I don't like that when Brian was like that. "Don't be so naughty." What the fuck?! Brian never said I was naughty to him... I think I should leave him alone. 

*SKIPPING TIME*

It was school end. Brian and I went out of the schoolyard. "So Brian, are you ready?" I asked. "Yes..." He answered. We went to his car and drove to the hospital. "Do you know the room?" I looked at him. He nod. Then it was quiet.

We were in the hospital. Brian began to tremble. "Brian chill, it's only a hospital." "I - I can't go in this room. I - I can't..." He whispered. We walked slower. I pushed him to the room. He trembled more when we stood in front of the door. That wasn't normal anymore. I looked at him:"Relax Brian...." He ignored me and opened the door. I held my breath. Now I know what Brian means. That was horrible. She looked like a zombie. I was speechless. "Talk to her Brian." I said. "Can you leave us alone Jeordie?" What?! Did he really say Jeordie o me? He didn't say that since two years I think. I went outside.

//Brian's p.o.v.://

I had sit on a chair and looked at Victoria. I cried a bit:"Why didn't you call me? You know I am always there for you. And you know I would do everything for you. You didn't need to commit suicide..." I saw her pulse was very low. "Please survive it... I can't live without you anymore. I know it's very early but it's the truth. I love you so much... You might kill me that I can't love you." Then I saw her pulse became a bit faster. I smiled a bit. That makes me happy. I touched her hand. Her hand was cold like liquid nitrogen. That wasn't normal. But I wonder what's going round in Victoria's head? Maybe the only thing she sees is black or many pictures or thoughts. And I wonder how it is to lie there - to be in a coma. Without moving and without really breathing.... But I only hope she'll awake some day so I can embrace her and she'll be forever mine.

I looked at the clock. I think Twig can come to me. I opened the door. He sat on a 'hospital-chair'. "Did you sit there the whole time?" I asked. "No I walked around the hospital, I was on the boneyard and I ate something... Did you 'talk' with her?" He looked at me. "Yes it was very helpful..." I said. "Good. Do you want to stay here or...should we go?" Twig asked. "We can go." I said. He only nod and we went to me.

In my room J' sat on my bed:"Do you think she'll survive that?" I shook my head:"She looks like a stiff you know... that's horrible." "I know....and I feel like you..." J' embraced me.  "You can't feel like me....I am at odds with me... I feel uncrowded..." I explained. "Don't say that Brian. Keep your fingers crossed for her and then...wait." J' is so naive. Doesn't he see that I love her? Doesn't he see that I can't live without her anymore? I looked at him:"Do you really think it's so easy?" He said nothing. "Imagine Laney would lie there and I would say the same like you do it to me now. I don't think that it would be so easy for you." I said. "But the difference is I am in a relationship with Laney and you don't know whether Victoria want to be in a relationship with you." J' said. I said nothing. I don't find an answer for that. "But Brian if you want that and she has survive that I will tell her something about you and such like that." That was a good suggestion. I nod. J' smiled a bit:"And if you want we always can go to her after school." "That's a good idea." I said.