Dear, Best Friend

Realization

Dear, Best Friend.

When I saw you with him last night, it made me realize that I'm no longer your main priority. And it broke me.
He carried you on his back, walked straight passed me, you said not a word.
I want your attention back. I want you to look past him in a crowd, and see me. Your best friend.
I miss the nights when we laid out and looked at the stars.
I miss our talks, and hysterical laughs. I miss laying on my bedroom floor, listening to our songs.
I miss watching Dr. Phil,..it's not the same without you.
We started seeing less of each other when you started seeing him.
I hated it. I hated him.
I want you to be happy, after all you're my best friend, but I wish you weren't in such a hurry.
I feel like the whole world is closing in on me.
I feel like you're just going to forget me.
What breaks my heart the most, is knowing I won't be the one you love best anymore.
I know we won't be as close now, because you'll have him.
You'll confide in him now, and not me.
I'll be left behind with no one to comfort me.
Please don't leave me.

It's not too late to change your mind. You don't have to marry him.
10/30/17