Draw The Beatles

Sorry........

Guys, I don't wanna do this, but, I am gonna leave Wattpad, just for a while.

Well not really gonna leave, I'm not gonna log out or something, I'm still gonna read stories but I'm not gonna update my three books.

5:15 AM in the morning, me and my family all went to the hospital, to spend my grandfather's last breath....

Few minutes later,6:05 AM, his heart stopped beating, he passed away......

A year ago, he was diagnosed with brain cancer. We were all there for him. He tried to be strong but, his couldn't make ut anymore.

My grandfather is the one who has been taking care of me and my sibling when we were little because our parents are working abroad. My grandfather who was the one who introduce to me amazing rock bands. My grandfather is the one who made amazing memories together with me and my siblings. This monster is the one who killed him. I remembered I am the one who accompanied my grandpa every afternoon, from 1pm to 5pm. He always tell me silly jokes and stories. He was the greatest granpa I've ever had....

I felt like my heart was stabbed a million times, you don't know how much I've been crying. He was just 61 years old.

It's really hard for me to move on, I love my grandfather so so much, I don't know why God take him away from us, but I guess God needs another angel in heaven, It his time to rest in peace.....

I am just not in the mood for Wattpad right now, I don't know why I can't accept his death. Since I came home by myself, I locked myself in the room, no one stopped me though, they understand my pain. I have been crying for hours... And here I am, a total wreck. I've been thinking suicidal thoughts in my head, I tried to stop it....

I'm so sorry guys right now, I am not going to update all of my book until I became better.

Thank you for understanding guys...

-Ella

R.I.P
Christopher Carisma
January 04, 1956- October 31, 2017