Dear love <3

Dear Love

Dear love,

Your the one I dream of having when I grow older. Your the one that keeps me hoping. Your the one thing I can't be taught.

But your also the thing that hurts. Your the thing that can make us feeling like the whole world is against us. You, you can destroy us just as easily as you can build us. 

There is many kinds love. There is the one I have for my parents and family. The one I get from my family and the one I haven't had. The love where a person loves me most in the whole universe and only me (romantically i mean). 

But your the thing that make me afraid. I'm afraid. Afraid of losing the person I love. Don't you ever get tired of hurting people? Making them cry and making them not wanting to do anything, just stay in bed all day. I have seen the mess you make up close. You have already hurt me even tho I haven't learnt to love. You made a mess and I can't see the end of it. You have made my life so  hard. You made the people around me cry, people I haven't seen cry before. How can you be so cruel?

I understand that everything has to hurt at one point. I understand that nothing is perfect. Your not perfect. Nobody or nothing is. Everything has flaws. You hurt like a bitch. Excuse my language. 

I see that writing I love you is easy. I can see that saying a meaningless I love you is nothing worth. I see that every time I leave one of my loved ones, I should hug them tightly and say I love you. Because you never know if it's the last time. 

You make people smile. You make people cry. You make people feel like they are standing at the top of the world. You make people wanna die. You, you control. You make people afraid when they should dare to take step forward in their life. You, you make fear but still we love you. How we still love you I don't know.

Love, don't get me wrong. I love you but you also make me afraid. I hope you stay with me forever. For by making me afraid you help me through my fears and help me grow as a person. 

I love you.

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