♡How I Found Him♡

I hate you

KIIARA'S  P.O.V
**It's over**
Those words went round in my head multiple times. I couldn't comprehend it,it wouldn't just be peaceful  in my head. After he told me that he is breaking up with me;I felt my world shatter into a million pieces and everything just went black. I tried by all means to sound as strong as I possibly can but all I managed to say was "Okay Benjamin" and I just cut off the phone. Tirana tried to help me but she couldn't because I chased her away. I wanted to be alone and accept my reality alone,I never wanted to appear weak to them. I needed to cry alone! She tried convincing me that bottling things up is never the answer but I really didn't care I needed my space. Thankfully school got cancelled and that meant for me staying in bed that whole day, eating ice-cream and sulking. I cried to sleep and my brother's shirt was wet too. So I got up and went into  a deep thought shower as I turned on the hot water in the shower. I let the water splash over me and wash away my problems,my tears but I ended up on the floor of my shower crying. "Baby are you okay?" My mother asked. Honestly I didn't know what to tell her,I was okay but that would be a lie or to tell her that I'm not okay and tell her to buzz off. "Yeah I'm fine mommy. Dont worry,by the way it's good to hear your voice." I responded. Lie lie lie lie. I hate lying
"Okay baby,just yell if you need anything. Haha nice one young lady,but  i missed you too" she responded as she left my room. I got up from the shower,wrapped a towel around myself and wore my running attire,then headed out. I ran ran and ran from my reality until I reached the gym. I got there and started punching the poor punching bag as if it hurt me. I continued punching and punching until my knuckles became sore. I sat down and just caught my breath when I felt a hand go on my shoulders. I looked up and saw  Otis. Otis was my best friend as well as Trevor's but him and I always got along way more than him and Trevor ever did. Him and I have a long history but through that history we always remained best friends.
"Hey beautiful,its been long" he added with that beautiful boyish smirk
"Hey handsome,I have to say that it has hasn't it?"  I responded getting up to hug him. He pulled me immediately into a warm embrace and just like that all my worries were gone for a while.
"What have you been doing 'cause I see that body of yours is woooo-Ouch"  he said and I slapped him lightly for checking me out
"It wasn't even that hard,and its for checking me out doofus." I replied to him. Otis was a crazy child that looked very mean if you didn't know him. But as you get to know him,you see a very happy and jolly person. I loved him because of the relationship we have. He is my best boy friend. You know what I mean.
"You still call me a doofus? REALLY? I thought you'd be better now." This guy is my male version I swear
"Yeah or do you want me to call you Otees? Or cereal?" I say as I laugh at his face expression because he looks like he's constipated.
"Haha very funny. How's boxing been going?"
"Um I quit boxing. I just couldn't anymore"  I said as we left the gym
"I understand oh and I hear you and Trevor broke up?"
"Yeah,your best friend is a stupid man whore"
"Trust me I know.I don't like what he did to you. I love you more than I love him."
"Ncaw,and I love you too."
"I'm glad you do. So-" that was the last thing I could comprehend as my vision got blurry as I saw Benjamin and another girl holding hands kissing.
"Arii? Are you fine?"
"Yeah I'm fine do you mind taking me home?" As my tears were now threatening to come out.
"No,come my car is that way."
"Thanks Otis"
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Otis had just driven off after taking me to McDonalds for food. I got in the house and  went straight to my room. I cried again and again,not because it hurt. No but because Benjamin was my boyfriend that i so dearly loved and a day after breaking up he is already sucking face with another Bitch. I took another shower and put my sweats and hoodie on and went downstairs to Linda's house. I knocked and saw a  blond one night stander on the doorway. She looked at me and inspected me from head to toe.
"Get out the way bitch if you know what's good for you." I said with venom laced in my voice.
"Um who are to tell me that? As far as I'm concerned you don't live here!" This girl was starting to annoy the living daylights out of me
"BITCH MOVE OUT MY WAY!" I said and grabbed her hand to shove her away.
I made my way upstairs to Linda's room. When I got there I kicked the door open,and a very handsome yet pissed Linda came to light.
"Oce. what the fu-"
"Don't you Oce. me you. I can't believe what you did. Do you know how much you hurt me? HUH? Do you actually give a flying Fuck about my feelings? I have only known you for a couple of months but already you have fucked up my life in no way anyone has! I really loved him and you took the one person whom I really love and made him believe that i was using him as a rebound? Who the fuck gave you the right to do that? I loved Benjamin way more than I loved anyone in this entire world. The love I has for Benjamin surpasses the love I had for Trevor! Benjamin broke up with me and it your fault you jerk. He broke up with me because of what you said to him. I can't believe that i thought that you were my best friend but you go and do such shit? Who does that?! Linda I HATE YOU,you hear me HATE YOU. Even hate isn't strong enough,I DESPISE YOU WITH ALL THAT I HAVE! I NEVER EVER EVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. BECAUSE IF I DO,IT'LL BE TOO SOON. AND YOU'LL MEET YOU'R FOREFATHERS BEFORE TIME. STAY AWAY FROM ME ! AWAY! I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU. I HATE YOU. DESPISE YOU"
I said that as I walked away. Hurt,broken and weak,all the the things my brother told me to not be. He told me to be brave,have no fears and most of all be independent

A/N
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