♡How I Found Him♡

Sorry

I get home and honestly I'm tired as Fuck. I need to take a cold shower and go to the gym to meet Otis for our boxing session. I go upstairs,take out my clothes and go take a shower. I quickly shower and and come out,wear my clothes and head downstairs. I've been avoiding Linda,Bailey,Princess and my parents ever since the day Benj broke up with me. Its been a month since that happened and even now I'm still heartbroken but that has to change. I go downstairs to my bike and away I ride to the gym.
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"Damn girl! Where is all this muscle coming from?" Otis jokes as I throw a punch at him. I laugh lightly and respond "You know my mother ain't raised no weak bitch. Life is currently a Bitch and its fucking me up bruh" I conclude as I throw the final punch and miss. Frustrated I take off the boxing gloves,and sit down at the corner of the ring.
"Ey bruh,You have to fuck it up before it fucks you up" and as he said that,it dawned to me that what I'm doing is pathetic. I'm showing people I have a weak side and in a boxing match that could be  deadly for you. I need to pick myself up,clear all the shit stuff that had been happening. I need to get Benjamin out of my system as in right now. "You're right and now I need to go back home. Thanks for the session and for all the advice I've gotten since you and I got close again you've proved to me that you are really my friend. Thanks Otis,I love you." I said to him. "Ugh,eww all the lovey dovey shit. You make me want to vomit sometimes you that? Well I'm just happy that you are going back to that brave,fearless and independent girl I know. I love you too though,oh and looks like our session is over. See you tomorrow?" Otis asked "Yeah bye doofus" I replied as I walked away,I hear him groan because I called him doofus. And finally after a month I can finally say that my smile is genuine. I got home,took my third shower and boy was I hungry and thirsty. So after showering I head to the kitchen to make myself some food and blast up the music to some Nessly

*Just hop aside,catch a vibe. When i want you I'll be quick with my reply. Baby don't lie,you've been waiting all your life. I can't say that i want a wife,but come on lets give it a try. Ooh catch a vibe*
Honestly I felt good,it felt good not to be depressed,felt good to go back to rapping my songs,felt good to be smiling again,felt good to be dancing again. I went up to my room after  i ate and danced a round like a fool.
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I get up and groan. Why? Because I have school. Swing my legs to the side of my bed,head to my closet ,pick my clothes then head to the shower. I step in the shower and I have to say it feels good to be have a hot shower after one month of cold showers. I quickly wash the sorrows away and wore my clothes then headed out to school. Go to the kitchen,grab an Apple then head to my car then ride to school.
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I got to school,ran to my best friends like i haven't seen them in years.
"Hey guys. I missed you"  I say screaming loud enough for the entire school to hear me.
"Oh nooo. Guess who's back again?" Princess screams
"Oh they don't know? Don't tell them. They don't know? Dont tell them" Bailey continues
"I bet they'll know as soon as the kween walks in" I finish our trio remix of 24K magic by Bruno Mars.
This moment was very joyful and I missed talking to my insane yet smart intellectual friends. Damn! I feel smart for saying that.
"Guys I'm sorry,very sorry for avoiding you guys. I know that i shouldn't have done that. Especially when I needed yall the most. I blocked you guys out of my life when I needed my friends. I wasn't a loyal friend and for that i apologize." I say truthfully and I shouldn't haven't actually did that to them. And as I finish apologising I hear Linda's voice. A voice that I've been longing to hear. The person whom I've been the the most nastiest, I told him I hated him and that wasn't even in my vocabulary. Hate was a strong word and just saying it gave me chills. I was emotional when I said that and I shouldn't have said it weather I was emotional or not. I looked at him and all saw through those beautiful green eyes hurt flash through them. We kept starring at one another until he broke it off and went outside,I ran after him and found him outside the school. I went up to him slowly carefully "Linda-" I tried touching but he moved.
"Dont touch me" he said coldly.
"Linda please" I tried to reason
"No Oce. You told me you hate me. Do you know what that did to me? Do you know how fucking guilty I felt. I broke you, I made you break up with the one person you loved the most. That one person who claimed to love you. So no Oce." He said i felt his voice cracking up
"Linda look,I'm sorry for what I said. I shouldn't have said that. I said what I said because I was emotional but even that doesn't begin to cut how much I hurt you and I don't blame you for being pissed or angry at me. Even though I was emotional I shouldn't have said that. So please Linda,please forgive me." I begged him.
"Pissed? Angry? I'm not angry I'm not pissed Oce. I'm heartbroken as fuck." He replied
"I understand and I'm sorry okay. Please just forgive me" I continued to beg
"It's fine Oce. I forgive you"  And hearing him  say that was the best. I went in for a hug and he hugged me back.
"I missed you. Oce." And those were the best words I have ever heard since a month ago.
"Linda I-" I tried speaking but I couldn't
"You what Oce?"
"I missed you" those weren't the words I wanted to come out.
I love you Linda Whitmore more than I should

A/N
Hey lovelies I know I haven't posted know in a while and I'm sorry for that.