JohnLock - Can't get over you

(John's POV)

"Hey Sherlock. I know it dosen't make sense but Merry Christmas. I know I'm weird for talking to a corpse or a patch of land whichever way you see it.Anyway your tombstone has been feeling rather cold because of the winter weather so I brought your scarf and coat.I guess I'm going crazy talking to your dead body. It's kinda funny to see that you're dead.Life is back to how it always was before we met. I've been going for therapy although it dosen't really help. The only way it helps is by killing time.I know I should do more with my life but it's not the same without you.I guess you could say that I'm in love with you, Sherlock Holmes. Oh well, I guess I better go and get ready for Molly's Christmas party. I love you." I confessed to a corpse.Great job, John Watson.I talk to my best friend's grave everyday like it's normal. I guess he's my only friend.Everyone I met through Sherlock are just mere acquaintances. I was the most affected by his death I slowly lose my sanity.Now,months after the fall,Mrs Hudson thinks I'm crazy.When she asks me to get the groceries,I find myself in the cemetery, talking to Sherlock.

On the way back, I get a few stares from the crowd.Since I started working with Sherlock, I didn't mind being stared at.Once at home, I remove all my clothes and take a short bath and somehow end up taling a nap waking to a horrible nightmare.Unlike before I met Sherlock where my nightmares were from war,these were worse,they were from that day.How I despise myself for not saving him.I quiclky got dressed and headed to Molly's place.