Noha's Thoughts

Thoughts #1

I remember those days.

The days that you made me feel like I'm the most beautiful girl that your eyes laid on.

The days where you made me believe that you will love me until our last breath.

You always show me how much you love me, but you never told me. I always hear people saying "action speaks louder than words", but I never wanted to be called assumera so I didn't assumed. Always remember that actions are confusing without words.

You made me feel special, but you left me afterwards.

You even promised me that you'll wait until the right time comes because we both knew that we're not yet ready. You left me because you're tired of waiting. But you never knew that I was waiting for you too. I was waiting for you to become ready.

I never knew that in just a blink of an eye, you'll forget my existence. You forgot my almost 6 years existence in your life. You forgot everything about me.

You are the one who pushed me to fall in love with you, but you caught me just to push me away from your life!

You left me for someone you just met! For someone I consider my friend! For someone I'm starting to hate!

She was there to advice you about us, not to steal you from me!

How can you fall in love with her easily?! Without considering my feelings.

She has a boyfriend but you still want her. But good news, she broke up with him just to be with you! 

Both of you are so selfish! Your girl left her boyfriend for you, while you left me for her! While me? I left my good future just to be with you! And all I got is nothing!

I always ask myself "Am I not worth the wait?", "Am I not enough?", "Don't I deserve you?" and lots of questions. Every question pains me a lot because my other self answers them a "yes". "Yes, you're not worth the wait", "Yes, you're not enough", "Yes, you don't deserve him" and more answers that keep on tearing me apart.