if I where to leave

voices in my head

I hear voices in my head all the time. I'm kinda use to it,but sometimes it's to much for me. While I'm laying in my bed I feel a cold drift flow across my face. It sends a shiver down my spine so I pull my blanket over me. "You're fat" I remember being pushed to the ground the previous day. "Stop please" I whisper to myself covering my ears. The voices continue and when I close my eyes all I see is, me being shoved and pushed. "Honey get you're fat ass out of bed" my mom says while opening my door "ya sure" I say while grabbing some new clothes. Grate now I have to get out of bed. When I walk into the bathroom and talk off my shirt I see myself in the mirror. "You're ugly" "you are fat" "I can't believe you would go out looking like that" "just lay back down no one wants to see you" "kill yourself" the voices say... a tear rolls down my face. "Well at least I get to see him" I say to myself smiling. "Come on you are going to be late for school" mother says in a mad voice. I grab my bad and skip eating I need to lose weight. When I open the front door and shut it I get hit with a basketball. "Hahah loser" a group of girls and there boyfriends walk by. I just keep my head down and continue walking to school. *Hey! I can't wait to see you today,I know you'll look beautiful like always.* I get a text from Brian (my boyfriend) a smile goes across my face. Well at least I know I'll have a kinda good day. I look up at the beautiful blue sky with white clouds,covering the  sky like a blanket. I smell sweet flowers. Before I knew I was already at dread full school. As soon as I get to my locker I feel something warm on my sholder. "Goodmorning beautiful" the words flow through my ears and dance in my head. "Goodmorning handsome" I reply with a smile. Brian is the only one that can put a smile on my face. He's also the only one who can make everything feel better.