You said "Dont lose ur hope"
But....
You are my hope...
And I lose you
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He once said to Jonghyun
"I've seen you for almost 24/7, do you think I would still want to see you?"
He answered Ren's phonecall with
"Don't talk to me on phone, you're just meter away, and I can hear you voice through the wall, do you still think I want to hear your voice here too?"
He even once joke to Aron by saying
"Hyung, are we not being too much? We've seen each other so much on the dorm, we're rooming together, and now you're following me to my hometown"
Baekho's the only one not given a clue
A clue that he's going to go so far away you should cherish this moment.
Minhyun's accident is really something nobody could expect. Well no accident is predictable. But Minhyun's one is the one that Baekho hate the most. He hates that Minhyun has to be gone on that day. On the day that's his most favorite day. On that day when flower blooms and sun shines the brightest. Minhyun's dead in spring.
"Baekho ya.. what would you do when I'm no more in this world?"
How he wish Minhyun had ever said something like that to him, then at least he'll be prepared to know what he felt today.
The day his other half is no more in this world.
Baekho wash his face and tried his best to smile. He always smile. In hardest situation. Even when his dad died and the judge convict him guilty for something he never done. Baekho never cried when Pledis drop his contract and make him go back to jeju. He always smiles.
But no matter how hard he tried he can't smile. He can't smile for every reason he's been able to smile before had gone. Minhyun has left him alone in this world. In this world where he's the most miserable, he felt he had everything because Minhyun is still beside him.
Minhyun never left him.
But he's gone now.
No more mellow songs at night and noisy nag at morning. Minhyun has gone with his beautiful voice only ringing as memory in Baekho's mind.
No more beautiful face to look at when he's tired after a whole day doing nothing. The face that always smile when he smiles, the face that cried when he smiles at his misery.
No more Minhyun who will be miserable for him. No more Minhyun who left his star world to come to this country side and become a cashier just to be with him.
No more reason to live
Baekho concludes
As he think of that, pictures of their beautiful memories are flashing in front of his eyes.
As if tempting him to let go
And he chose to let go
He's letting go of the miserable live he never realize he had until the veil that covers it is gone.
That veil is the cheery soul named Minhyun
He let go
And Baekho jump
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FIN
