It has been two years now since I stopped datinganuj( I thought he was the love of my life). I am on my journey to becoming a news anchor. Still a student. The journey seems never ending just like our lives. I can totally blame the people around me for the ups and downs. But it would indeed be called as a clear way out. No, unlike many writers I aint upset or frustrated with my life. I am extremely happy and feel funny too. I somehow look at life with a clear vision. I somehow understand things before they happen. So I am never that'upset person'. Unless three days ago, when it was my mother's birthday and I ruined her day by fighting with her. We fight alot but they are never serious. This wasn't either, but I kindda ruined her day by yelling at her.
It all started from my college. The college I hate being into, inspite of getting the best facilities. I can totallyburn it down to ashes because of the director and his useless rules and regulations to control the institute. He has been playing around with my studentship as I changed my internship organization. I was wondering if it was that big a deal? No it certainly wasn't. But he had some illness issues, hisbraincells had died.Hisillness killed us. Day after day, we cursed ourselves for having joined the institute. But we couldn't withdraw, the fees was extremely high and no one would refund it back moreover it promised a career, thatone could only dream of. But coming back to the reason of me being upset was not just the college and its norms but also abhimanyu. One guy I could definitely stab for his disgusting character. Abhimanyu is one of the three guys I have dated. He is in the National Defense Academy. I dated him- through phone- after breaking up with anuj. He was just a rebound. But then he somehow became an integral part. That integral part which can be termed as a living bastard. He thought he was acasanova, but for most of he girls he was plain cheat. Coming from the defense background, I think he should've maintained his standards. But no, he refused any kind of sensibility. I feel ashamed to say that he was always this one crush you would never let go for me. And that's what I did. I was on his hook for about two years now. He came every two months in my life, stayed for about a week, made me feel loved and then vanished for the next two months, making me feel miserable. Everytime he did that, I decided that I will never turn back to him, but somehow that guy always made me believe that I was the one for him. I never thought, that guys like him actually existed. Until I fell on my face. It has been nine months since I have been dating Rohin, the actual love of my life who is also in the National Defense Academy. I will come back to him later, for now, I want to end up with abhimanyu and his foolishness of dealing with life. A week ago abhimanyu texted me saying that he really loved me, and wanted to have a "future" with me, as always I got carried away and reciprocated. I was such a fool. Since I hadn't been in contact with Rohin for a month now, I was happy for whatever abhimanyu said to me. I was such a dumbass. Like even a two year oldkid understands loyalty, but I just can't see anything beyond abhimanyu's face and his false hopes. Now after a week, he claims to immenselyl ove a girl, I came to know about it through Facebook. A channel everyone uses to communicate indirectly. The status update was long enough to fool that other girl. I wonder if she has seen his dumb side. I knew this was coming my way, so I switched off my phone three days ago, on my mother's birthday itself. I didn't want to ruin my relation with Rohin. He was the world's most amazing guy. But I also knew that I might get trapped into abhimanyu's nonsense, so to refrain from all the arriving troubles, I switched off my mobile phone. There I was happy and sorted. I felt good, as I wasn't doing anything bad to Rohin. I wanted to be loyal, no matter if it worked or not. And yes, Rohin is my Army man, but it does not end here, the incidents are yet to come up :)
Anuj, was my first boyfriend. We were in a committed relation for three and a half years until he made out with another girl from our school. Not that he was ditching me for someone else, but circumstances were such that he got carried away. He was never a 'playboy' types guy. I knew he loved me and somewhere deep down, he still loves me. Even for me, no one can replace him. He was more than love to me. He was my best friend and a person I could talk anything with. But somehow I never forgave him for what he did. Well I was in school back then. But hey I still haven't forgiven him. Infact I never will. He stole away all the happiness that were meant just for me. But I didnt give up. I always had place for new guys. I never restricted myself with all the negative feelings inside me.
After anuj, abhimanyu happened to me, the loser, the dumbass, the most annoying creature,. He, as I mentioned earlier was just a rebound to me. We spoke to each other for about a week and then he dissaperared. Little did I care. I was just overcoming a heratbreak. Then came in the shooting tournament. I was an air rifleshooter back in school. Every year I went to participate in the shooting tournaments. I met Rohin there, a year ago. He stuck to me like petrol to a car. I used to get pretty irritated. Only if I had realized, that someday, this guy would be My GUY.
During the sportstournaments in delhi, I met Rohin once again. This time with an open attitude. I was still in the heartbreak phase, and suddenly found myself dating Rohin by the end of the tournaments. Since then, Rohin and I have always been on and off as we lived in different cities. Whenever I was off with Rohin, Abhimanyu the cheap crow always came back. Like just for a week. Always a week. Not more than that. During the years, I graduated from my High School and joined the best media Institute of the Country. Meanwhile, Rohin also got admission in the National Defense Academy. Both of us shifted to Pune. We thought that we would make things work by living close to each other. It was my last text conversation with Rohin before he joined the academy:
Me: Hey
Rohin: Hii :) Hw r u??
Me: I am gud, just getting my documents attested.
Rohin: oh ok. I am leaving for pune on 21st. I hope evrythng goes fyn in the academy.
Me: Don't worryit will be alright. Acha, so which defense services do you plan on joining?
Rohin: Hmm. Army it is.
Me: THANK YOUUUUUUU :)
Rohin: Thank u for wt??
Me: hmm.. nothing. will tell u sometime later.. in the near future.
Rohin: well then I'll keep that in mind.
Me: ya sure :P
Rohin: Chalo, I gtg now, ill catch you later. Takecare :-)
Me: yup.. takecare :)
Actually the "thank you" was for joining Army and not Air Force or Navy. I always wanted my husband to be in the Army. Since, I am an army officer's daughter, therefore I wanted my husband also to be from army. I knew Rohin would definitely be the one for me.
Rohin, is the most special thing that has taken birth on this planet. His parents, his siblings and most of all, I am lucky, immensely lucky to have him. He is unlike the many existing guys. Far Far away from whatAbhimanyu is, and the one who showers me with that heaviy rain of Love.The tall, fair, well builtbody, most chivalrous, loved by all and yet down to earth guy belongs to me. I know I might just jinx it, but I can keep going on.
