Twisted Story of My Life

Chapter Twenty Three

I felt awkward after realizing what I just did. I am usually not the type who attacks or does the first move, to strangers most especially; but there is something about those beautiful brown eyes that seemed to have allured me. Makes me feel that I could not get enough of him. I love his stares. I like the touch of his lips on mine. But I am not sure if this is what I really want or if this is what has to happen. I removed myself from our hugging.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have," I said looking down; ashamed that I might be misleading him to something.

He lifted my chin so that I am staring straight to his eyes. He smiled and said, "It's okay, babe. No worries. No rush. You don't even have to decide now. I just want you to always know that I am right here."

I sighed but thanked him anyway. How can I even deserve this? Here I go again. Besides, I am not even sure that I know now what is real and what is not. Previously I believed in all Zeke's unconditional love bullshit. But look at me now. I know I should stop being negative. I don't want my baby developing in a bitter environment.

"Let's eat," He muttered offering his hand to help me get up from my bed.

I gladly took it. We held hands going out of our room, during the elevator ride, and while walking going to the café. Bystanders might think that we are a happy couple having a vacation; a lovely couple that could not get enough of each other. Well, we could be... who knows?

After eating brunch we went back to our room. I lied down on the sofa and turned on the TV. He lifted half my body so that I am now lying down his lap.

"Baby, how are you there? Please don't give mommy a hard time," He mumbled as he was caressing my tummy. I felt butterflies in my stomach again. Or is that baby smiling? Feeling the warm touch of the acclaimed father.

I held his hand on my tummy and looked up at him.

"Thank you, Calix. You have done too much for me."

He just smiled and nodded then started watching TV.

My heart melts all the time... with each touch, each sweet word, and each caring gesture. I just don't know what to do. Here I am being embraced by a strange love, while the father of my baby is out there probably caring for the mother of his other child. It pains me that I have to go through this. I am falling for Calix but I just don't know if this real or I am just being overwhelmed by his kindness and sweetness. I am not even sure if this is right. My family and friends, and later on even the baby I am carrying, might hate me for stupid decisions I might end up dealing with now. I just don't know. Is Calix for real?

"Tomorrow we are going home. I already called my driver to fetch us in the airport then we shall drive you to Baguio. Or do you want to stay with me at Makati just for tomorrow night? You can trust me. I am not the type who takes advantage," He said winking.

I smiled. "Well, I think I need to go home. I need to tell my parents about my baby."

He frowned and looked quite serious or hurt.

"Why?" I asked.

"Why not tell them about OUR baby?"

"But they would know that we just met and there is no magic that made us a six-week embryo," I said rolling my eyes.

He touched my cheeks and bent down. Before I knew it he was kissing me passionately. At first I was trying to push him away. I am afraid that I might lead him on and would later on find out that this is going nowhere. His kisses got deeper and deeper and my heart beat became louder and louder. I felt my hands tugged his hair and I was kissing back. Really kissing back. My feelings toward him are now too strong. I don't care anymore if this is wrong or right. But how can something that feels so right be so wrong? I keep on asking that. I felt my other hand going down from his hair to his back. I am clinging tightly on his back now as our tongues explore each other's mouth.

With his swift movements he was able to scoop me up and bring me to his bed... to his bed where we ended up making love. I felt that his every move is sincere making sure that I am okay with what he is doing. He never made me feel that he is just taking advantage of the situation I am in now. At one point he even whispered, "Baby, can you feel daddy now?" I felt like my head is flying, not sure if it is because of the sensations his manhood is giving me or those words that he just let out. Just like a promise that my child will no longer be fatherless; that I won't be a miserable single mom. Maybe just maybe I have to start believing and enjoy the moment and hope it lasts... forever. The promise that was sealed with a lovemaking that is gentle yet full of emotions.

Calix is hugging me from my back and is softly whispering to my ear, "Babe, I hope you now realize that this is our baby." I felt the warmth of his hand as he again caressed my tummy. He also planted small kisses on my shoulder. My body is now covered with goose bumps.

"Thank you," I muttered as I held his hand. That is my last memory of that moment before I fell asleep. I am sure I fell asleep with a smile on my face. It feels so good. So damn good. I was not even conscious of my naked body beside him.