I N N O C E N T T H U G :: Started From the Bottom::

I N N O C E N T T H U G ::Feelings Appear::

      I become more anxious to go to the park as I look at myself in my outfit. I smile and walk out her room down stairs to see what she was up too. " Girl you look good! I'm mad i aint you!" she says smiling giving me dap. I flipped my hair and then laughed it off. " I feel good, im ready to go" I say in exciment. Amiah smiles " okay girl, come on lets hit the road" she says grabbing her keys. " Now where you going ?" the grandma says looking at Amiah cleaning the kitchen counters " Mamaw im good, im just going to the park for acouple of hours and i'll be home in time for dinner, i'll even wash the dishes after" she says wallking out the door. I look at the grandma and give her a hug " Thanks for everything , you really are a good grandma" I give her $50 for letting me stay, it made me feel good and I walked out.

    " Girl! come on lets ride!" she says pulling out the drive way and headding to the park. I sit in the car nervous while she drives, I wanna throw up cause thats how nervous I am I felt butterflies because I was going to see Lloyd, dressed like this! He was going to love it and I know it. We pull up in the parking lot and I see bond fires on different spots and music is blastin, everyone and they momma was there.  I sat there looking as Amiah squealed and got  out the car. " Come on girl! , lets hit it!" she says shutting the door. I open my door and fix my shorts and my hair and I walk out  threw the grass and looking around. Everyone was having a good time and Amiah went straight for the weed and they immdately brought out the pipe. I looked to the side and laughed it off walking to the swing set sitting down. I was a little shy but i knew i wass going to break out of it. 

     I sat around looking for Lloyd and I started to get a little fustrated. I walked to the food table by one of the bond fires and I got a drink. It was a virgin margarita, " So, no alchole yet huh?" said someone, I smiled turning around remebering that voice " oh hey Lloyd" I say giving him a reasonable hug. He hugged me back but moved his hands down a bit. " So how are you baby girl, I see you came I knew you were" he said having his hands together. I give him a wamring smile and we walked toward the swings. " So, your India huh? seems legit, I like your name Lloyd and India? Just fits" he says sitting on the swing next to me. " Yeah , my mom said it fit my potental, when i was born she said i seemed like an Inida" I said swinging back and forth holding my drink, " Well i like your name it does fit" he says. 

    It become awkward , then he stired it up again " So? What was your mom like? Where do you live, tell me something i wanna know" he says smiling at me. He seemed legit and cool to talk to so i opened up to him. " Well , my mom isnt in my life.. she currently lives in a trap home. And my dad , not much to say about him, he's a graphic desginer and he makes good money so we live in the white people suburbs because of the money he makes, and me well not much to know, im different and i wanna change my image .. for a certain someone" I say stopping and getting of the swing, I became silent and looked up " Oh i didnt know it was personal i would have never asked" he says grabbing my hand and pulling me toward him. " Now India, tell me? How do you feel about that smoothie date? I'm on tomorrow if you with it?" he says rocking me side to side. I become red and I get flustered and I pull back. " Sure I will gladly go on the smoothie date with you, just give me a time i'll be there" I say writing my number down on his wrist. He gives me smile and hugs me again and he slides his hands down my back grabbing my butt. I wasnt uncomtorable I liked it in a way.

     I let him kiss on my neck as I force it down. Feelings were errupting, I wanna let go cause i knew it was right, but it felt so good, I had butterflies and I gave into him.