24 Hours With You

Let Me Give You My Love a.k.a Be My Wife! (Part 1)

Beam wrapped his arms around his body a bit tighter as the speed of the wind progressed with time. 

He had stayed at the beach since sunset and it was currently night time. He hadn't meant to stay out so late but needed a quiet and tranquil place to think things over.

Why didn't I just accept Forth since the beginning? Things might not have turned out this way. 

He couldn't lie to himself anymore. Especially not about the way he felt.  

He knew he wasn't an easy person to love or get close to, so he was grateful that Pha and Kit were in his life. However, that meant that letting anyone into his heart would be that much more difficult. 

Ever since the events that transpired between him and Forth, he found himself pushing the other boy away. He'd made things so hard for Forth and was surprised that the other boy had yet to give up. In his defense, he kept acting coldly towards Forth because he was scared to accept him. He was scared to believe in Forth and have everything crumbling down. He was also scared to believe in his words and in his honesty because he felt that Forth was only doing what he was doing because of guilt. 

I don't want to be anyone's second choice and I definitely don't want Forth to be with me if all he feels for me is guilt and pity.

Beam wiped away the tears that had started falling down his cheeks. 

Ironically, he might be someone who people might consider to be a playboy, a jokester,  or someone who was carefree and had no sense of seriousness, but that didn't mean that he didn't need to be loved. 

Beam wanted someone who would cherish him, someone who he could open up to and let them know the deepest part of him, the parts that were vulnerable and scared. 

He wanted someone who wasn't too serious and knew how to enjoy life. In particular, he was looking for someone  who was responsible and gave way to his selfishness. He had gotten used to being pampered while growing up and hoped that he could find someone who could spoil him and protect him. 

He knew deep within his heart that he had found the one. He had found Forth. The only problem was, could he believe in Forth and the sincerity of his words?

I'll never know if I don't do something. Perhaps instead of waiting, maybe it would be better if I came clean and let him know how I truly feel. I don't want to lose him.

He was afraid that Forth might get tired of him; tired of waiting and trying. He might get annoyed to the point of diverting his attention to someone who was easier and why wouldn't he? Forth was smart, handsome and manly. He was a true gentleman, and was both patient and kind. It wasn't like there was a short line of people waiting for him. On the contrary, the amount of people that wanted to date Forth were plentiful and he was sure that Forth could pick and choose whoever he wanted. 

There was bound to be someone who would fit him better than Beam. If Forth looked hard enough, he might find someone who was worth his time. 

He could find someone better than me...

No. No. No. I can't think like that, besides, he choose me out of everyone else.

"Agh! Why is it so hard!" Beam kicked the sand in frustration and yelled out loud to no one in particular. 

However, by doing so, he brought some unwanted attention to himself. 

He turned around when he heard a jumble of noises behind him.