I Don't Need Someone To Save Me- I Need To Save Myself

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Don't you realize that I'm not fit for a relationship?

I wanna rip my heart out, feel like my soul's turned black
My jeans are ripped and my eyeliners thick, I may never go back
Always on the search for the next high
Although I'll smile and tell you that I'm fine

I'm fucked up- therapy is probably best for me
I'm fucked up- I just wanna feel free

Either I feel too much or not at all
My walls are so high
I wish that I could fly

I cry myself to sleep and smile in the morning
I'm dangerous- need a sign on my forehead that says "WARNING"

Relationships
When it comes to it I'm shit
Do I really want one?
It never works out, there hasn't been one that I've won
I'm scared of many things
From me fucking up to being hurt again

I know who the fuck I am, and they're trying to change me
I'm helpful, I'm kind
And when I smile I shine
I do things without a second thought
If you're in pain I'll find the fucker and they will rot
Its hard when I've got this bad conscious on my side
Feels like this damn life isn't mine
Feels like I'm running out of time

I love'em to death and maybe its my fault
That I'm like this, maybe I'm more fucked up than I thought
They're my family, I should start giving more damns
This person, me, isn't who I am
I'm scared, worried, lost, not in control
I'm searching for the thing that will make me feel whole

I'm two sided
Half minded

I let my insecurities get to me, I push people away
I walk half blind throughout my days
I'm just trying to get through, trying to make everyone pleased
I'm just trying to get through, trying to figure out what life means
I'm just trying to shape myself, what the hell's all this stress?
I'm just trying to get through, not get a perfect grade on every test
How the fuck am I gonna get myself outta this mess?

I'm freestyling, letting out my thoughts and feelings onto this paper
And fuck you if you're gonna be a hater
I don't have time now and I won't have it later

I'm a little girl, chasing the moon
Laughing and playing and boys got me swoonin
Pigtails and dirty dresses
Momma gotta clean up all of these messes
Tryna understand why the kids making fun of me
They think they're hanging my dirty laundry
But nope!

If you wanna know the truth walk your ass to me
You're fucking blind, acting like you can see
Pathetic, every single one of you
Being a bitch like all ya'll do
Doesn't it ever get old?
Don't you realize the damage that you'd sold?
I wonder at which point your heart became so cold
That you didn't know you broke that little girl
She was already having trouble in this huge world

I'm a big girl now
Everybody expecting something outta me like wow
Who knew life would be this stressful
I'm pickin up after myself now
Work hard with no play
Same old shit on a different day
Feels like it'll never change

We say we're happy through a lot of tears
One day we'll be happier- maybe in a few years

Be careful don't get to close, Because I'm up to my head in bullshit and I can't take another dose.

I got hooked on the wrong guy
He told me everything I wanted to hear
But all that shit- it was lies
And all that it did was end in tears

Sure it taught me a lesson about guys
Some of them are nice but some of them lie
I gotta keep my trust to myself
And all ya'll fuckers keep your shit to yourself

I'm not your pretty baby
I don't wanna be your lady
I'm not confused
And I sure as hell refuse to be used
AGAIN

I keep my armor strong and shiny
And I don't wanna hear any of that whinin'
If I tell you to stay away then listen
Trust me baby there ain't nothing that your missing

All I'm saying is I don't want something long distance
It hurts my heart and there isn't enough resistance
There's too much temptation for the significant other
And God only knows that I don't need another
Replay of May
I fucking hate myself for that day
So if you wanna ask me out then you better be closeBecause I'm up to my head in bullshit and I can't take another dose.