Dairy of a Trans Boy

"How did you know?"

That's normally the first question you'd ask, Huh? Well luckily, I have an answer to that.
     At the booming young age of ten (probably younger) I have always been a "tomboy" I guess. Tragic, Basic even. Now I wont lie, I played with Polly Pockets and Bratz dolls, Hannah Montana was my idol (This was back in the good days so shush). But I was never really comfortable being put with all the girls, I got along better with boys all the time. 

Now fast forward to me when I was fourteen or fifteen, My early teen years. Which just so happened to be when I noticed all my flaws and weaknesses. I felt too skinny but there was no way I'd try and gain weight, I grew in all the wrong places. I cut my hair as short as I could without thinking- But my hair was so flat, It made me even more insecure. Then I tried makeup. Nothing seemed to work at the time-

Then I had a chat with a very important friend of mine, Who mentioned i could be "trans". Hell, He even bought me a binder.
But I was ready to potentially come out, Then not a couple days later my cousin came out as trans.. . I'm not saying i wasn't happy for her, But. How would that make me sound.. .? Hearing the way my mother talked about it alarmed me, She had thought maybe my cousin was going through a phase. . I don't want to be a phase.

But I hate to say I have yet to come out to most family.. . 
Don't be like me.