The Trouble With Love (SHOEY Fanfic) DISCONTINUED

Pour Salt In The Wound (Chapter 5)

I dropped Lisa off and thanked her again for helping us find Shane.

I watched in agony as Shane kissed her goodbye.

My Shane. The one who doesn't love me back. The one who broke my heart.

Right now, all I want to do is go home and cry. That's all I've been doing lately anyways since Sawyer's been on vacation in Hawaii.

Just the constant silence. It's enough to make me want to put a gun against my head.

It doesn't matter if the TV is on, music blaring, vacuum humming. I am alone, without human companionship. I can't tolerate being alone.

I pull out of her driveway and start down the road, lost in thought as the song ends. I turn down the volume as a song I don't recognize plays.

"Joey? Would you mind if I spent the night with you? Like a sleepover?"

"I don't see why not. Is that okay with you, Shane?" I look into the rearview mirror at his melancholy beauty.

He shrugged.

"Fine with me. Just go to sleep by 12, Iz."

"Yay!!!" Izzy looked overjoyed and relieved. Geez... My house isn't that amazing. At least I'll have another being in the house to keep me from my mind.

I sighed and pulled into Shane's driveway.

No... I can't do this alone. I can't do this without him. This is agony.

Who am I kidding? I need him.

He got out without one word and started walking up to the front door. This is it. He's walking away...

--Joey... Joey stop. Just let him go.

No.

Ugh. I need to make up my fucking mind...

--You win.

With a quiet whimper, I jump out of the car and race after him. I get to him and hug him. A feeling of comfort enveloped me. Just took over. I needed him.

He hugged back and rubbed circles into my shoulders. I breathed in his smell, kind of manly, yet playful. Kinda husky. Smells like Shane...

I need to be his protector. The one who comforts him on his bad days. Not the other way around. I just can't stay pissed at him.

He can't know he hurt me. So I quickly change my train of thoughts to his eating disorder and taking care of Izzy.

"I'm be here for you if you need me. Call me if you need anything. I'll watch over Izzy and make sure she's okay. I'll bring her back around 10 tomorrow.

I couldn't see his face, but i could tell he smiled slightly by the tone in his voice.

"I will, Joey. I'll text you later. And I know you'll keep Izzy safe. I trust the fuck out of you, bud."

I finally look up at him and smile slightly.

"Okay. And I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday... I... I.."

Oh, fuck it.

"I... I'd better go... Bye Shane." I quickly kissed his cheek and ran back to the car.

Why did i do that!? I needed to get over him! You just made it worse for yourself, dumbass!

I heard him murmur- "Bye Joey." before walking inside his house.