My Next Door Neighbor Joe Sugg

Chapter 46

Vanessa's pov

"I want everything to be perfect for you. I love you." I wish I could hug Joe as he said that.

I could hear him but I couldn't move. Every time I tried to move, my body wouldn't listen. I wanted to hug Joe as I heard him begin to cry. He feels bad for what has happened but I want him to know that I'm fine and everything is going to be okay from now on.

The door opened again but there were no footsteps for a couple seconds. Then the door shut and I heard a sigh. I know that voice. It's Dan.

"How do I even begin? There's so much I can say to you but you won't hear any of it. Maybe that's a good thing." He muttered the last few words and I felt his hand hold mine.

His hand was shaking slightly and I wasn't sure why. He's never been this nervous with me before.

"I can't believe this happened to you. It's all my fault, I should've gone to Los Angeles when you said you were going. I should've known this would happen." He squeezed my hand and paused for a bit.

"Vanessa, I killed someone. I had to lie to the police and tell them it wasn't us. I've done this before but I'm afraid. What if we do get caught? What will happen to us? You won't be protected and I'll never forgive myself."

I guess that's why Dan is nervous or more anxious. He didn't do anything wrong, he was saving me. But I guess that would be different with the police.

"I actually can't forgive myself right now. Fuck. Vanessa, why did you date Joe? Why did it have to be him?" I could hear Dan crying softly.

Why Joe? Because I love him. But why is he asking me this? He should know how I feel about Joe. It is pretty obvious.

"Ever since I met you, I liked you. Even in that dark alley when you were pressed up against me, I just got a weird feeling in my chest. I knew I liked you but I was afraid of saying anything. It would be dangerous for you to date someone like me and I could never do that to you. I always cared for you, more years than Joe. You haven't known him for that long, so why him?" He was crying louder now.

I mentally bit my lip and slapped him. How could he say this to me now? He thinks I'm not listening but this won't help him either. He should've told me before, I thought he only thought of me as a friend. I used to like him before I met Joe but nothing ever happened and I moved on. Dan, why are you like this? I feel terrible.

"I thought I had a chance when you said you were moving back. Joe got in the way. No, I shouldn't say that. You're happy with him and I should happy for you. For both of you. I wish I could've had another chance, just to see how it felt to be with you. All I can do now is protect you. That's what I'm going to do from now on, protect you and care for you. You're an amazing person, never forget that."

I felt Dan's hand let go of me and quiet footsteps leaving the room. I wanted to cry and hug him. I never knew he felt this way and I wish he would've told me sooner. Now that I know how he feels, I feel as if things will be awkward. He won't know but I will, I'll know how he actually feels about me.

The door opened once more and I could guess it was Phil. "Hi Vanessa. This is sort of awkward, talking to your body. I think I just made it worse. Well, you can't hear me so it's fine." He let out a chuckle and I mentally laughed.

"I'm guessing Dan told you how he felt about you. Unless he was crying about something else then what I say will make no sense. Anyway, I knew he liked you and I wanted to tell you but then Dan would get mad at me. He's my best friend and I guess I should've told you." He sighed and paused for a bit. Please don't tell me Phil likes me too.

"I only really saw you as a sister and I thought Dan did too but I guess not. It's kind of weird actually, I heard him tell Joe that he thought of you as family. I guess he was just trying to hide the fact that he liked you. I'm not going to get mad at you if you don't like him, you have Joe now. Stay with him. Don't regret anything you've done, Dan will get over it." Phil didn't seem to be crying, unless he was being quiet about it.

I knew Phil wouldn't spill Dan's secret, not a secret like that. It must have been serious or else Phil would have said something. I still feel bad for Dan.

"Anyway, I hope you wake up soon. Joe is getting worried and so is Dan. I'm starting to worry too, you seem to be breathing a bit slow but I guess it might be because you're asleep." He chuckled and I could hear his footsteps.

"This is so weird. Um, get better soon Vanessa." He muttered and left the room.

It was quiet now and I was left feeling confused. Dan hid this from me for so long and he even had to deal with Joe and I bring together. And even through all that, he was still determined to find me.

Why do so many guys like me? At least Phil doesn't see me in that way.

The door opened again and I thought it was the nurse but I heard a familiar sigh. Joe came back.

There was some shuffling of papers and then the sound of a chair. I'm guessing he's staying. I'm not sure if it's daytime or nighttime. Could be nighttime.

Hopefully Dan and Phil get somewhere safe. At least I have Joe with me. But I'm not sure if Dan told Joe that he liked me or if this will just be an awkward secret I have to keep. Hopefully it's not and Dan and Joe fix it themselves.