who knew.

another fight.

It was another annoying night, listening to my parents argue, I didn't think it was going back together...like when you throw a plate on the ground and it breaks but you keep saying sorry to it but it just doesn't come back together, I sit down in the corner of my room..the door closed but I can still here my parents talking or should I say screaming, I sit down thinking if I ran away would they ever care or continue there life like I was never born, i stopped staring at the wall and put my sleeve up and looked at the deep scares from yesterday telling myself I'm a mistake, thinking how the other girls at school not caring about me or even asking we're I've been, but I just deleted my mind and started crying, I stood up and walked to my bed I laid down my bed but facing the wall it wasn't new for me, I got so used to it I didn't even feel the tears rolling down my face to the end of my cheek....I closed my eyes that felt cold because of the temperature in the room and the tears still in my eyes so I stopped everything and turned the other way around to look at my phone to ignore ever word came out of my dad's or mom's mouth about me I scrolled down my phone and noticed ever single person I know is at a party having fun and drinking and smoking weed, but i never wanted to be one of these kids...I thought who am I kidding even if I try I would never be as good as them even tho these people wanted me to try it but these people still don't and won't know I cut....