Blurred Imaginations

7•Olive Green

(Olive Green: traditional color of peace.)

Gemma Louize Rodriguez

1 week had passed and still hindi parin kami nagpapansinan ni James. Well, He was the one who started it and told me na wag magpansinan. It may sound childish but I'm sticking onto my pride, I just can't back down from a fight. If its about school work or activites like checking nagpapansinan kami in the most civilized way possible. Maybe if not we would cause a scene in the room so we're just chilling.

I was planning on sleeping in class because its our vacant time, Our Prof told us we can do anything but we should just minimize the talking. I glanced at James and he was scribbling something on his notepad so I didn't mind him, but as I slouched and bow down on my desk I was facing him sideways. Get it? Nakatungo ako pero nakaharap mukha ko sa kanya. I bet he wouldn't mind since we had agreed on ignoring each other last week.

"Hey, Gem." Or so I thought? I just looked at him and he was looking at me too. I didn't speak well its because I'm too tired to do so. I had a long day yesterday, there were so many customers in the Cafe so I had to work extra hard so I slept late last night.

Tinakluban ko nalang mukha ko ng panyo ko so I don't have to deal with him and the fact that he calls me Gem. I was about to drift off to sleep but tinanggal niya yung panyo sa mukha ko and he was looking so peaceful yet so happy while I think I'm looking so annoyed and pissed right now.

"C'mon, I'm gonna tell something." Umayos ako ng upo at Hinatak ko na lang sa kanya panyo ko pero nahatak niya ulit to make it short we were playing tug of war. Oh great, he interrupted my almost-sleep.

"Ano ba kasi yun?" He just smiled and laughed at me, okay? Kala ko naman importante sasabihin tapos tatawanan niya lang ako? Am I a clown? Seriously?

"Yay, You talked to me. Its nothing though." Now I get it, its to break on the deal we agreed on. "Kala ko naman kung ano, paimportante. Istorbo." out of frustration I said that and rolled my eyes. Tutungo na ulit ako kaso hinila niya ulit panyo ko.

"Sorry na kasi, bati na tayo." He said it while looking sorry yet he is laughing. Then Out of the blue, I laughed too because we're both being silly. "What? Diba ikaw nagsabi na wag kitang pansinin? Pati ikaw sakin?" He just scratched the back of his head with his other hand kasi yung isa left hand niya nakahawak sa panyo ko.

"Eh hindi ko kaya eh, Sorry na kasi." I just laughed and nodded my head at him pero He didn't seem satisfied with that.

"Fine, Bati na tayo." I just smiled at him and binitawan na niya panyo ko. Yay! "and one condition, Let me sleep." I looked at him with pleading eyes and he just smiled and nodded.

"Okay Tigress, I'll let you sleep." That's my cue, I rested my head on my desk but I can feel him stroking my hair gently that I smiled and I must admit, it was soothing. Well, This ain't bad at all.

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Lunch na and pumunta lang ako sa rooftop kasi wala akong gana, I texted Skye and the gang na hindi ako makakasabay and she just replied an Okay with a happy face and a heart. Oh, I know what is happening there right now, Nakasabay na naman siguro nila yung Buenaventura twins. Hays, Persephone Skye Gomez when will you confess to Daniel? Kapag naunahan ka na nang iba? Baka magkaaway kayo ni Queenie kung ganun. I shooked my head to clear my mind off.

"Gem, What are you doing here?" I thought it was James kasi pinapayagan ko na siya para tawagin niya ako sa nickname na yun to move on but then again, He is here. Joseph Adler is here, Standing in front of me.

"Tumatambay lang." then I looked away and humarap ulit sa railings habang tumitingin ulit sa baba.

"Shouldn't you be eating?" I didn't look, I might melt again just by staring at his eyes so I didn't speak either, why would he talk to me again though? For the Last 2 years he broke our friendship off amd ignored me Like I didn't even existed. For a moment he's being ignorant then he would be caring.

"Won't you talk to me..?" We were met by silence as the wind blows by. I wanna walk away from him but my feet are glued on the ground that all I can do is hear the voices inside my head screaming to be away from him.

"Listen Gem, I-" I cut him off by turning around to face him. "Sorry Joseph, I have to go." I just gave him a faint smile and walked away with a heavy heart.

Nagmadali akong bumaba mula sa rooftop papuntang Garden, Alam kong wala ng masyadong tao dun kasi patapos na rin ang Lunch Time. I hurried to go there, Once I was there, I saw the big tree at the middle of the Garden and climb on it.

I looked down and I saw a teardrop on my hand, Geez. Why did that interaction made me cry? Maybe I've been bottling all the emotions and stress that I forgot to have peace within myself again. This was the first time I cried again for the last year. I can hear footsteps coming in my direction so I wiped tears still continuing to fall from my eyes.

Sana hindi ako makita dito or hindi ako abalahin nun, baka maintenance lang.

"So, out of all places. This is where I'd find you. What's a Tigress doing up there?" oh great, It had to be James. I just rolled my eyes even if he can't see it. I don't want him to see me like this. Damn, too late. He already climbed up in a minute. I can't look at him, I'd feel weak.

"Oh shit, why are you crying?!" He looked totally shocked and blank for a minute but then to my surprise. He lifted my head with his hands and made me face him.

"Shhh, Tigress." He sounded so soothing and calming with his deep voice while he was wiping my tears away. I couldn't utter a word to my surprise because this is the first time I felt so comfortable with him.

And he pulled me close and hugged me tight, Now I'm really taken aback with his actions. "Cry it all out, Tigress. Until you feel better. I'm here and Everything will be alright.." and with that, it hit me like a bullet train so fast yet so safe. My emotions stirred up mixed with my stress and Depression was all out Until I found peace within myself, All thanks to Heisenberg.

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Ongoing.

(n: sorry for the long wait, I'm trying my best to update despite busy schedules and day. Enjoy!)