School is NOT helping with anxiety and depression but then again no one ever claimed it would. Everyone here acts like they are the sun in the milky way but in all honesty they are all suns in a universe where I'm the only regular sized star. I just want to make my way through the universe without drawing to much attention is that too much to ask? A realization dawned on me today, Monday the 6th of November. It was that for the first, what? 18ish years of my life, I'm in school and school is ALL I'm expected to care about! I know weird. My life IS school as far as the grand scheme of things is concerned and after that what will it be like? School is ALL I KNOW! Because, again, it's all I'm expected to know but honestly I'm scared. It feels like I'm unprepared for a test that's a LONG while away but I will never be able to prepare for it I just have to dive right in when it happens so the anticipation is KILLING ME! And that's only the STRESS talking!!! Times annoying. Some times it will move too fast but sometimes to slow but it never seems to be working WITH you! Times like an annoying little brother you NEVER wanted. You didn't have a say in it, it will shape your life, and bully you endlessly. Seriously. We make our days around time and always have a schedule, maybe not the same one every day but we have one, written down or not. Society runs around time! When are the streets busy? Lunch hour and after work! When are they pretty barren? Night TIME! I don't like feeling so controlled. I also HATE not being able to form and voice my own opinion. It makes me so mad when I am sheltered or coaxed to blindly conform to someone's idea like like sheep being herded into the slaughter house by a Shepard, oblivious yet willing. I will NOT be herded thank you very much I've had enough of that as a child, baby. Another thing WHY THE HECK DOES MY DEPRESSION MANIFEST INTO ANGER!!!! I FEEL SO BAD!!! I basically rip into my friends and family when I'm depressed and it feels horrible. And oh boy guess whos stress anxiety and depression are ripping into their flesh? This persons!
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Oh dear My Life is a Comedy
HumorBasically a page where a depressed panromantic, asexual, nonbianary teen rants their heart out to the interwebs! Lots of mention of suicidal thoughts and self mutilation BEWARE!!!
