Those Blue Eyes

Chapter 21

Chapter Twenty One

It's been four months since I last saw Luke.

I guess he's doing well. They finished the tour last week. He has a new girlfriend too. She's pretty, prettier than I am and will ever be. Her name's Dakota. I think shes an Australian model or something. She's not the same girl from the party, I wonder what happened to her.

In these past four months, I just- shut down. The first few weeks, I was hopeful. Maybe he would call and apologize. Maybe he would come and knock on my door and beg for my forgiveness.Then I was angry. What did she have that I didn't? How could he throw away everything we had together? Now, I have accepted it. He isn't coming back. He left me for her and that's it.

Niall and Calum called me at least three times a day for the first two weeks. After I never picked up they called less and less. Eventually Calum stopped all together,but Niall still calls at least once a day and leaves me ten minute voicemails. he tells me about how the boys are doing and what they've been up to. In the last one he told me he missed me and he wished I would pick up sometime soon. I miss him. He's the only one that still tries to talk to me. London gave up too. I guess she got tired of listening to me complain and drag on about Luke. The past few weeks she's spent most of her time at her boyfriend's apartment. She never introduced him to me, not that I blame her.

With all my free time, I have really focused on my classes. So far I've added to my schedule an advanced Spanish class, a beginning French course and Sign Language. The more I think about it, the less it makes sense. I'm taking all these language courses so I can communicate with people, right; but I don't even talk to people in my native language...

I look at the clock and it's blinking light. It reads 3:12 and the sky is black. The stars don't seem to shine as bright as they used to... they're more empty and lonely looking as they spread out across the night sky. They seem less inspiring and hopeful... but then again, everything does.

My phone vibrates and the screen lights up my dark empty room. I look down expecting to see a text message that I would most likely ignore, but instead find a Twitter notification. It reads @musiclover favorited @dream_on_dreamer 's tweet: "@Niall Horan you shouldn't even be in One Direction!"

"What?" I whisper to myself. I should call Niall, I know I should. He's already seen it and he's not going to go to the other boys for this. He'll keep it to himself because he doesn't want to burden other people with his problems. That's just the type of person he is.

I pick up my phone and dial the number. As it rings, I worry about what will happen when he picks up. Will he want to talk to me or leave like everyone else? Will he bring up that night? But even worse, what if he doesn't pick up? Has he has already given up? Is he with someone else- why did I even care if he was? I hang up the call before the answering machine and flip myself down on my bed. I close my eyes and drift off into sleep with the memory of his blue eyes in my thoughts...

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I wake up the next morning to the screaming of my alarm. Outside my window is still dark with night, but now you can hear car horns in the distance. I've slept for about three hours, about the normal now, and feel absolutely exhausted. My mirror shows me I have dark bad under my eyes and my skin is slowly losing it's color. I don't even bother brushing my hair and throw it up into a messy bun on top of my head. I slide out of my pajamas and into my outfit for the day, consisting of a pair of sweatpants and a baggy tshirt. I grab my bag and slip on my moccasins and I'm out the door.

As I look down at my feet I remember months ago when Niall sat on my shoes and crushed them. To this day they have yet to recover. I feel a smile appear on my face and can't remember the last time that's happened. My clock beeps signaling it's seven o'clock. I pick up my pace and head towards my Spanish class.

I quickly take my seat just as the lecture begins. I pay attention in class writing down everything my professor writes. Today we are discussing other cultures effect on American culture. The class seems to drag on and by time we can leave I have no clue what the assigner for tonight is.

"Señorita Emma, can you repeat the assignment again for me? I missed it the first time... I apologize."

"Dale. ¿Puedo hablar de algo?"

"Si..."

"Would you be interested in traveling abroad? You have done tremendously in this class and your other languages as well. We have an opening in one of our programs... Some one had to drop out but it's non refundable so you can go for free plus tuition though."

"I would love too! Where would i be studying?" I ask. This is absolutely amazing! The opportunity of a life time, really. I mean, how often was someone going to come up and offer me a trip already paid for to a different country? Never, this will never happen again.

"We believe in Brazil, but that is still to be determined. We are attempting to place you in an area with a large population of Spanish speakers, since you are taking advanced level spanish now and took it all four years of your high school career..." she explained.

"That would be amazing!" I exclaimed. Maybe my life was finally turning around... I could get a clean slate and start new, in a new school with new people...

"We will send you all the information and keep you updated on all the upcoming events revolving around the abroad studies. Now, if you could excuse me. I have a meeting to go to and I'm running late!"

"Of course! Thank you again!" I say and leave the room. I can't believe this is happening to me! I take a deep breath and smile a real, genuine smile. I feel my phone vibrating in my pocket and pull it out. My smile widens and I see the familiar picture on the screen: Niall. Today, instead of ignoring his call, I click accept and place the phone on my ear.

heyyyyy guys I know you all probs hate me but I finally updated so let's just celebrate that! I have had an extremely difficult time trying to figure out how I want to write this story and how I want it to end.... not saying the end is anywhere close or anything don't freak out.... sooooo I hope you guys are doing well and are finishing out the end of the school year strong.... I promise I will try and get on a more regular schedule for updates but idk how that's gonna work out! btw I would like to dedicate this chapter to @gemmaastyless and @billieex because they literally sent me the sweetest messages ever! so thank you guys and everyone else reading this right now! I hope you all have a good week and don't forget to vote and comment and tell your friends!!!

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-Katie<333