the falling heart

'' My life ''

I work at Banking company I like the job and everything but the most I hate is the schedule timings the rest is perfect. I have 2 sisters 3 brothers were a family of seven, I'm a simple girl likes drawing, makeup, fashion, movies, and books. To me all things perfect and amazing life family job, also some of my friends thinks I'm little crazy but some see's me adorable. But didn't count that sooner my life will get changed to upside down or clockwise.

" Rough Day ''

It all began when I was having a rough day in the Exhibition, my day been full of talking to people giving them feedback's about the company description to me this day was like a pain in the head. hated this day in the morning was exciting but in evening got worse and worse, to be honest, I hate going to Exhibition's at the time that I was done went hanging out with girls they tried changing my mood plus making me feel great. At the time I've reached home got text on Twitter by someone I don't know it was a guy called  Ali to me it was shocking why he's texting me or chatting me at a late time,  he was 23 years older than I was to me Kept saying why texting me or chatting. The time has flown away cause we spoke for several hours I forgot that I have to wake up for work at morning, so I excused him to hit the bed must wake up early so then I've slept but noticed that he didn't sleep he kept retweeting my tweets and liking some of them.

'' Wanna Fall in Love With Me ''

Been 3 weeks of chatting plus texting me a lot Ali wanted me to love with him, the problem is I was 19 no time for love or anything I was deep in work and family so I don't want love Ali kept insisting figuring how to get my heart or love. One day he came to my work came to withdrawal money at beginning didn't know it's him tell he said Hey Maya how's family, Yea my face went to question mark how he knows that when I looked at his face was Ali but why different name  said came to withdraw from moms account, he actually came to ask me to on a date with him but I was saying no he kept insisting at the end I've said yes to him and his request dinner at fancy looking restaurant. The time I was done working went home to change and dress up to look marvelous Ali came by my home to take me to dinner, at a fancy restaurant in Dubai we sat down to talk and know each other more and more asking questions answering them Ali tried to grab my hand I was like what are you doing Ali "sorry Maya I was feeling romance so I touched you", in the same day he brought me a necklace as gift for our love and I appreciated it very much.

'' What's Happening To Me ''

It's been 2 years loving him I knew Ali for several years but it seems that in our relationship  Ali got changed by the way he used to love me or know me, noticed something was very very weird that Ali sometimes makes me away from home and work. I sneak to meet him at night leave work at early time to see him for couple of minutes problem is Ali loved me when I couldn't do the same or feel same as he did that's why our love was called one side love, these days I was falling apart also getting twisted less family sitting and meeting my friends I was really getting drifted away by him. One day Ali wasn't there while I chatted and texted him for a full day no reply not even answering my calls, then I've noticed that Ali was cheating me after he known me more and getting into my personal life no reply no texts. Ali kept this way for 2 weeks plus by the end of week 3, Ali texted me saying "he Maya sorry was away no calls nor texting you'', I replied him that I wanna meet you we've met and sat down talked for two hours all answers made me heartbroken.

'' Is this Your Love? ''

In the next 2 days, all that kept coming to my mind is ''Ali is this your love'', now I wonder why my girls kept telling me loving boys is rough and stupid I wasn't meaning all boys but some of them are nice and respectful, others want you for own gain or personal gain. Got shocked that Ali wants to break up with me asked him why is it me or something wrong in me he said ''nothing wrong with you and not even bad feature of you'', Why tell me what makes you break up with me what's the reason he got honesty and said "I will soon get married to a girl I will live with and be with. She will honor me and love plus be honest to me that's why Maya I'm sorry but have to break up and forget each other", the honest was to me as a shooting arrow to my heart made it bleeding with no stitching or anything. 

" Abandoned Me After All Of That"

He drew me a dream that made me carried away to love him and like him, went out to cinemas, played shooting games won for me teddybear, was there for me in my sickness, drew to my face a lot of happiness. it's been for the breakup duration of 6 months could barely believe it like forget him or leave him, I was devastated by work and family and friends no texts nor replying some calls. Less sleeping and more thinking of him he left me hanging all alone no one by my ide wanted to be close to him at least a friend or a person will listen to him if he was sad or mad at his wife or anything, to me life was so drafted away all alone standing in the darkness. But the time has come to say goodbye, even though it will make me cry and sad. I'll never think that it would come to this, but this is our last touch. 

'' Better Will Come ''

I know that I may find better than him or meet other one but, once you've filled your cup with water you can't let other have or drink it that's why my heart was him only. I knew that by days that the right guy may come to meet me or be with me treat me better and nice, kept driving myself to be positive and convince that happiness is all matters to my heart. Been a year of the break up no words of how's his life or is he okay none, but my heart kept saying that other than him can't or won't enter your heart.

''Once Had A Heart''

There goes other side and half of me Ali dumbed me plus left me alone, no shoulder to cry on nor put my head or someone to listen to me so I express my feelings. My life came back as before but still not that happy because heart got demolished and turn away like a page was full of fake love and some lies, for the heart I'll never have the life that has forever gone because it belongs for other heart that I've once haded.

"My Love Was Based on a lie''

Ali loved me some days as a real lover, like want you and need you in my daily life till the end of time with him but it wasn't the only love cause for a short time what to do it was how's fake love look's like. I've never thought that my feelings for you would change but then again, didn't think that you would change either. So as you said I will say to you Ali Goodbye.

'' What's Love, How To Love ''

Love is not hard to be loved it's easy all you have to do is carry the heart that loves you and appreciates it like a piece of you other half listens to you, opens his arms to your feeling gives you the shoulder to cry or sleep on in time of sadness. Time will not heal a broken heart scars time will kill the happiness you've once had, plus since the day you came in my life, I know that you are the one I'll truly love till the end and won't let you go.

The End