Me And You

authors not

Please read this, I need your opinion, okay so my brothers best friend is my crush, I've known him like 3 years, but nothing happened, EVER, so I put them (my feelings) behind me,

until 5 weeks ago at homecoming, I was sad because my date canceled (Devin), so I decided I wouldn't let it hold me back.

I got all pretty, and wore a backless blue strapless dress (it was sooo pretty), and about halfway in, I ran into Jeremiah (my crush) and my brothers group of friends (also my group of friends) so I started dancing with them, then the last song came on, and it was slow, (thinking out loud, by ed sheeran i listen to it all the time now 😳) so I grew a pair and said "hey, you wanna dance?" And he said "no" I said okay and started to walk away, "unless you lead," he added on right before I left, so he put his hands on my hips and I put mine on his shoulders,

So we started awkward, as far apart as possible, then about halfway into the song, we were pressed together, he had is arms tight around me,(resting on the small of my back) and mine were tight around his neck, as we rocked back and forth, my older brothers, were gocking,(Cole and Joseph) because they knew about my crush, and Jeremiah whispered that I looked beautiful,(I blushed so hard) after that we took pictures, and he held me by my waist up against him, and after that, he walked me to my friends car and leaned down so I could kiss him, I pecked his cheek,(huge mistake, I should have nailed him one, I don't know if I'll ever get another chance...) he hugged me, and left,

After that, we got closer and hugged every time we saw each other, and texted all day, then the next week only in the morning and he walked me home, the next week, I said I thought I loved him, he stopped talking to me, he stopped walking me home, he stopped hugging me, so I walked up to him that Friday and I went crazy apparently, and said to him "I love you, okay? I get it that's not what you want, but I do, you're my brothers best friend, and I didn't mean to ruin that, but I love you, and I'm not pretty, and I'm not smart, and I'm clumsy and messy, and very weird but I love you, and I'm sorry about that, but deal with it" and he smiled and HE said "I don't date, Ruby and you know that, but I like you, I do, and you didn't ruin anything" so now, we hug, and when we do, he spins me in circles, or picks me up and smiles, and he walks me home and we aren't dating and I told him I was ok with that, people ask all the time though...

I'm telling you all this

Because I don't know what to do now

Because devin, is another guy, I like him, and he likes me, and he DOES date, so do I go with devin or Jeremiah?

Also I asked Jeremiah to winter ball, and he said YES!!
(This time, I'll kiss him)😳😳😳

Jeremiah, flirts kinda like a grade schooler, he teases you and makes fun of you if he likes you,

Devin is flirty, period, he doesn't get embarrassed, football player, class clown, super cliché dude

WINTER BALL!!!!!

this obviously isn't a diary, but no one I know understands how I feel, and I thought if anyone freaking read this, they would,

So, I got dressed up and looked really nice, I walked towards Jeremiah he smiled "having fun?" He asked when he saw my shoes, I laughed sarcastically and said no, we checked in and stood with our group, then a song I knew came on, I dragged Jeremiah to the dance floor, NO ONE was out there, just me and him, and my brother and kiana (his date and my best friend) and we danced for a while, I got tired and sat down, Jeremiah followed me,he nudged my leg, and I nudged back, then, we danced again, he asked if I wanted to take pictures, I said yes, we took some, then a slow song came on, kiana and Cole slow danced, it was adorable, then, I slow danced with Jeremiah, it wasn't as good as homecoming, we danced some more, like crazy people, and then another slow song came on, this time was better then homecoming, he held me and I held him, we slow danced through the next song to, which wasn't soft music, but he didnt let go, and neither did i, then, we finished and went outside to take more pictures, they look nice, but I didn't kiss him, he didn't let me, when I got home he told me that he said I looked beautiful I just didn't hear, and then he told me, he didn't like me the way I wanted him to, so now, I'm heartbroken because I lost him. Its over,