Life Full of Regret

Well Not Much To Say

From an Early Year at school..

Everything was Going Fine until How sick I was Recently Getting because of my Asthma... it was getting Worse that is most likely going to the Hospital more and Not Attending School for Half of the school year...

it wasn't till the last day I've Gotten the "note" I've failed...I was full of depression every day I would be crying..

it took awhile to at least to try to forget about I "kinda" did I would be crying if someone mentioned it.

Then once repeating the grade before school started again it was about like 2 weeks before it before it began my mom... my dad... they were in a fight.. we had to call the cops on my dad. that day was the most hardest day ever in my life.. but then my dad told my mom for forgiveness.

he was literally on his knees and telling her to please forgive him..

it took awhile for my mom..

while everything was happening I was in my room crying and I just felt like I just wanted everything to end already..

but then we all forgot about it.

well not for me when I think of it..

it.. just brings me down knowing that the past still hurts..

then almost of the end of the school year I've started talking once again to this amazing girl that I've met along time ago and also met this other girl that later on became my bestfriend she still is and always will be! but then I started having feelings to this girl.. I told her she was my other bestfriend that I've been knowing for a really long time.. I told her I liked her she said "nothing was gonna change". well she's becoming a young lady pretty soon and she's been busy a lot lately but she's always on my mind 24/7.

it's just that my insecurities feel like when I told her I like her I felt that it made our friendship like awkward..

I Never in my life want that to happen. I still believe her but my insecurities is overtaking my mind its just hard like I said. she's one of the most smartest, beautiful, amazing, gorgeous and worth Everything In my life but pretty sure I know she doesn't feel the same.. but still not matter what I'm always gonna be there for her and make sure that I will do anything to keep her happy and would stop the whole world to get to her and help her..

it's just my insecurities...

That makes me regret everything I've done with my life..

it's Hard Forget...

its Still Eating me from the inside

have I ever wondered if she even liked me?!

I don't know

have I ever think if she would give me a chance?!?

I Still don't even know but... I Want to Prove to her that I would do anything just to be her Everything.

school is almost over not really enough time to prove to her well not prove but to show her...

She's on my Mind all the time I'm Almost at The Point That I'm... I'm... Falling In Love With Her.. I'm just really Confused since theirs many things going thru My Mind.. She's Everything I want I don't want any other girl then her..

I Love Her...