I want to be happy with what I have, but I get so stressed and so overwhelmed.
I get scared of what might happen I lose sight of what is actually happening.
I have times where I lose control of everything with feeling of pain and tension quickly moves from my head to my toes.
Its a nightmare when everything gets taken away in a blink of a eye.
I scare everyone around me because I am not responding but inside I am screaming help me and I can try to speak but all that comes out of my mouth is gibberish.
It is so terrifying that the words I say are taken away from you and jumbled into nothing.
I am silenced and paralyzed and I am out of control. I try to relax but my relaxation is apparently a hallucination.
It is so overwhelming everyday I have to deal with the fear that I will fall down and scare everyone around me.
I feel like I am drowning when I have the moments because all the stress and anxiety get put together into one moment not mentioning the physical problems like falling.
I also get surrounded by people staring at me and watching. its like I am so deep in the water that no one can reach me.
After the moments I get a surge of pain speeding from the front to back of my head.
I get so dizzy its like someone is inside my head shaking my brain causing my eyes to shake and my body to shake disrupting my balance.
