Mille-Feuille [ONGNIEL]

Thousand Layer of Feels

Preferably read it while watch OngNiel moments on Produce 101 season 2

Sweet as crème pâtissière ー the way he smile
Crisp as puff pastry ー the sound of his low crisp voice, pleasure for every ears who ever heard it
Sparkilng like confectioners' sugar ー the existence of himself

Ever since that pink-haired guy enter the pyramidal podium, I can't take my eyes off him, not to mention his friends that chat enthusiasticly loud are sure noisy - sure not negatively thanked to them the atmosphere has warmed a bit -.

NO

I don't intend to befriend with anyone here, just go along with myself like I always do. Remember the main reason you joined this program. You supposed to debut just like the two Fantagio's flowers Yoo Jung and Do Yeon did. Don't ever shame your agency's name, Ong Seong Woo. Keep focus!

Honestly not that I can't befriend with anyone, just...
I can't normaly be friend with boys, the way they just casually bro-hug you -or choked tbh-, the way they normally takes off shirt in front of you -and yeah even pants-, and the way they just suddenly slap your butt out of nothing like ???, and other 'normal' things that friends-bro- do. I just can't.
Impossible to not have one or two feels because of those acts or even how should I react towards that kind of acts?
Flustered and blush? Seems very wrong - not if I am that typical cute short girl - but unfortunately I'm just a 5'10 ft man. But towards that kind of gestures, I just can't help to...

Fall in love

Weird? Very, I'm totally aware that this feeling indeed weird. I can't do anything about that. I'm perfectly fine with girls though, no romantic feels towards them. Because whenever I'm with girls there are some unspoken rules that keep a distance with them. I can't touch them casually - sexual harassment they said -.

In short, let's just keep business-relationship with all the boys here.

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The first evaluation, my doomsday
The day he - the pinkhaired boy - just move up from B class rank to A class rank.
Again, with that sweet - very sweet - smile he greet me as soon he opened the A class room's door.
I purposely just ignored him and keep my head down, too obvious even for him that I can see a slight disappointed face on him - clutched my long lost heart - I swear even his disappointed face is attractive.

And the he sit beside little Woojin who has entered first, yeah look that super touchy gestures. How can they be a best friend already, huh? And even grab hands soooo tightly. I wish I was Woojin.

When I recieved my evaluation paper, I can't help recognize his gaze, he didn't even clap his hand like the others do.

He just gaze at me deeply

He and Woojin keep their hand tight as BoA sunbaenim announced that we are the center grouo of Nayana's song. I keep unconsciously stares at them - longingly -.

The first center's election...
He is the first to go on stage - he didn't even memorized his own lyrics tho -
Ah, just him standing still on the stage is already pleasure to my eyes, I didn't even get a single word he rap.

Can't you believe it, I even have the same position on Nayana's dance with him, cursed my height which is similar as him. His pink hair is just too impossible not too look and then his smile... I can see a glimpse of him on the edge of my right eye.