Pretty Faces With Ugly Faces

Pretty Faces With Ugly Stories

Toby: "I'm sorry about what I said to you."

(He never says sorry so I didn't know how to react.)

Me: "It's fine.. you were mad about what I did and you just reacted quickly."

Toby: "I know.. But I just don't understand why you would do that to yourself. You're a perfect "

I stopped him.

Me: "Don't you dare say it. You know that is makes me mad. I'm not perfect. I have so many imperfections and things wrong with my life."

Toby: "Stop. You just think you do. You have a great life."

Me: "So a perfect life is having your "bestfriend" totally forget about you, fighting with your siblings 24/7, not knowing who's there for you and not, and not being able to be yourself because everyone else expects you to be perfect..?"

Of course, I started crying. He wipes my tears and kisses my cheek and whispers into my ear,

"I will always be here for you. You need to understand that what you're doing isn't okay though. It won't relieve your pain, it won't make you feel better about yourself."

He knows I don't want to hear what he saying but he keeps talking anyways.

"I love you so much.. so much. You have so much to love for. Promise me you will never do that again, and just come to me and I'll help you. I swear on my life I'll help you with anything."

I look up at him and I have tears on my face still. No one knows what we're talking about. Not even Penelope or Daise. Just me and him..

If I even told you, you'd think twice about how I really am.