Desire and Temptation

Prologue

 

He was gentle and kind. The smiles he always casted towards me were so beautiful, it burned an image into my eyes. With every touch of his soft fingertips, I felt peace. I was happy with him and with every warm kiss and care; I fell so deep into love. He would whisper sweet words upon my ear that could make me flush and shiver. Everything was so perfect and quixotic.

“I love you so much” He would say.

“I love you too” And I would claim.

With him, I was satisfied. My despairs and problems in life didn’t matter anymore. As long as he loves me and as long as I love him, nothing mattered any longer.

Yet little by little, time had changed him. His eyes slowly turned cold and precarious. It was sometimes full of malice and lust that it scared me. He would still claim that he loves me yet all I could see was his hunger for my beauty. With my lovely innocent face, he succumbed into a deep obsession of monopolizing me and I had let him. I had let him for the only reason that I was unconditionally in love with him. I didn’t want to lose him even though I knew that those feelings were forbidden. Yes, everything was forbidden in the first place.

In my young age of fifteen, I entered into a relationship with my stepbrother. It went smooth at first; we were so in love and all. He was seventeen and had just started college. That time I was still a second year student. Yet there was no problem at all, except that our relationship remained clandestine.  

Little did I know, everything was nothing but deception. The kindness and gentleness, the warmth and the smiles and  I love you’s; they were all a trick to deceive me.

One day, I excitedly went home to surprise him with a present, a brand new cell phone he had always wanted. I had intentionally told him that I’d be home late. I smilingly entered the house and silently crept towards his room. The plan was flawless that I had even imagined how surprised he would be after receiving the present. But the one who ended up surprised was me.

There he was with his friends laughing scornfully about something inside his room. They were talking about some stupid girl who had fallen into their game innocently. That she had completely believed everything was out of love and devotion towards her and that his so-called boyfriend had just recently started to date a beautiful woman from his college. Everything was just a betting between them for when he would be able to have her body. And the game was almost to its end.

The girl they were talking about was me.

I felt my blood rose to my head and anger crept through my whole body. My heart was utterly crushed into a million pieces that all my feelings for him flew away with the cold air. What’s left was my burning rage and repugnance.

Everything went dim and there was nothing anymore. The forbidden love was never been there to begin with. I ran away from home, ran away from his charming yet disgustingly evil laughter, I ran away from the false love we shared.

The coldness of the night and the noises from the insects created a lonely eerie as I sat alone in the icy metal plate of the swing in the middle of the park. My heart ached so much that I couldn’t even cry. Hands shaking with hatred, I smashed the present to the ground and contemptuously stared at it as it crumbled into pieces.

In that deep night, I tried to compose myself as I thought of ways to end everything. It would have been easy to just let him know that I had found out about the game but that would be too boring. I wanted to hurt him and make him suffer for deceiving me. As my thought wandered profoundly and vengeance ruled my heart, the darkness inside me had started to wake from its deep slumber.

I was so occupied that I didn’t notice what’s happening around me. Startled as voices approached me, I raised my head and saw four young men in front of me.