when i was younger i never really fit in
with any1 maybe it was because of my mother
or maybe it was just me idk. the one thing
that i do know is the fact that i am the way i am
because of my overprotective mother. dont believe me
ill list a few things i was never able to do as a child.
i was never able to go out as a teen. when i was only 11
years old my mom would not let me go out past 7.30 PM
with my 3 year older brother to play.
and it kept like that for many years to come and when i
grew older and old enough to go out i had a mindset of:
HE! your not allowed to go out after 7.30 rule and so it
began. i was as a child verry shy and i trusted the wrong
people. girls i trusted were not to be trusted and told
some of my secrets to others. that as a whole cuz i was verry
shy as is it got me to have trust issues in people i did not
know. to this day i have trust issues and am not a big fan of
telling people things about me In real life though. ill get
to that point in a sec. when i left middleschool i thought a
weight was lifted off my shoulders but little did i know that
trouble just began. throughout my first 2 years of highschool
i was mentaly bullied (not hit but still being hurt) and that made
me sad and kinda depressed (i say kinda cuz at that time i didnt know
what it was or what to do about it) and my parents saw this person
and i let myself be happy at home with games and toys.
when i went to my third year of highschool we moved location. i hoped
that because of this i would not be bullied and OMG i was right.
but i wasnt exactly loved either. because of my 2 year bulling i
didnt take care of myself i wanted to just be gone. (the time im writing this
i cant rememer everything clear cuz im trying to push it back from ever
being a thing in my life aka pretend it never exsisted) i had 1 "friend"
the reason for the "" is cuz i didnt even like her. in my highschool days
most of my time was spend inside the school library reading books.
thats where she went too but just to read teen magazines they had.
she would not stop talking to me and was REALLY DUMB (when i say really i do mean it
she asked questions that teh answer to them was LITTERLY in the text -_-)
but anyways in that time i also got into NBA (idk why i just needed something
to keep my mind off things IRL) i choose miami heat as my fav team (back when 305 was there
) and i started loving it. my brother thanks to me also got into it and he choose
new york knicks as his team. we kept laughing at eachother if there team was doing bad.
