That Dark Stormy Night

A Journey Of Killed Feelings...

IT was a dark raining stormy night.....
All the Lights were off
I was sitting on bench in the park.
It was lightly pouring..
My party gown was half drenched....
With rain water and my tears.

"How could he do so ?" I asked my self half screaming.

There was not even a single soul in sight..
The park was dark..,
Cold and lonely.
I had a good company of loneliness.

The sky was giving me company in crying,
The park was dead silent and sad..
Just like I was from inside.

I just couldn't resist myself from thinking about him who was never mine.
He never cared about my emotions but still my tears were scrolling down my cheeks without stopping.

Keeping my chin down I wanted to ask him , how did he go so stone hearted ? Does he have any idea what he did to me ? Will he ever understand how it feels like when all your body parts start breaking for such a heartache without any noise ?

The actual fact is that I had some how lost my dignity and importance while caring about such a heartless person.
The more I gave to him the less did he show concern.

After thinking for a while I decided to get all over this and have a fresh beginning....
But it was as like a deadly nightmare for me
.

His thoughts were so attacking and powerful that theu forcefully came into my mind even after protesting for a lot many times.I was really broken into pieces , don't know how to collect all those small shattered pieces and fix them again...

Getting a lot into him my tears disappeared beacuse sometimes when you have more pain which can't be expressed they itself stop by any means. I felt something is killing me from inside , unfortunately didn't know what !

But what can be done now its too late I wish  for once had I ever expressed my feelings to him
May be he would have been mine.

But no I was afraid... afraid of losing the love of my life or may be someone who was my life...
"Hahaha" I laughed out on my own bad joke
I do not even know whether I love him or got attracted towards him.
I was being silly now.
After so much of crying for nothing, I am loosing it .

"Hell I'm loosing it" I screamed gripping a fistfull of my hairs.

"I am losing it" ...."I'm losing it"

My words echoed back to me from the dark .
"Am I really loosing it ?" I wishpered to my self..

"No.. you aren't loosing"..
"You are just broken and lost" spoke the darkness.

A shiver passed down my spine.....

When does the darkness started speaking ???

"OH MY GOD I'm really loosing it now... OR
I am hallucinating  ..
This is not happening this can not happen how can..." I was cut off mid sentence.

The voice came near this time
" I am sorry .. did not mean to startle you"

The soft moonlight was falling on the owner of the misterious voice

It was a boy with aqua blue eyes ,
Who seemed to be nearly of my age.

Was  i so much into my emotions that I did not even heard any one approaching me..

"What is a pretty girl in party gown doing here in rainy dark night"
He asked with amusement tinkling in eyes !

" Aren't  you afraid of ghost, zombie or any other paranomal powers " He streched his question..
Pushing me to answer

I hesitated  for a while before replying him "a scared mother, a hungry man and a broken girl are most dangerous existences ".

"Oh I see "...
"So which category do you come in ???" He asked with an eagerness...