Fighting Guilt 101

PROLOGUE:

"I am sorry. I don't love you. Not anymore." I turned around and walk with my head down.

Have you ever feel like your cheeks were burning?

Have you ever felt those 'butterflies in your stomach'?

Have you ever go crazy, squealing because he texted you?

Have you ever gone insane because of someone?

Have you ever felt cheated because a certain person liked someone when you are not in a relationship with that person?

Have you ever been an investigator, checking all the updates about him plus his status.

Have you ever been crazy checking your phone and expecting that he would message you?

Have you ever smiled from ear to ear because of a simple "Good morning. :)'?

Have you ever enjoyed nonsense conversation because you're talking with him?

Have you ever felt uneasy or concious about yourself, your weight, or your looks because you are with him?

Have you ever fall in love for someone?

If yes, then your answer is same as mine. I fell... so hard.

Have you ever cried for that 'someone'?

Well, I did. I cried... so hard.

Did he loved you back?

In my case. Yes. Yes he did. And he still does.

"Joke lang yun, diba?" his voice cracked. Sht! He's crying.

Did you ever fall out of love?

Because I did. I do. And now I guess I'll be hurting him... so hard.

I love him. Scratch that, I loved  him. And I'd be fighting with this guilt that is killing me inside.

I looked back at him. Just one last glance.

How I wish I didn't. Because DAMN! I saw him crying...

looking so hurt, and lifeless.

And fvck! I AM HELLA GUILTY!

Same circle of friends.

Same school.

Same section.

B E S T F R I E N D S.

Opponent: Guilt

Options: A. Hurt him with the truth plus kill your self with guilt forever.

                B. Quietly kill him with the lies and hurt yourself but live with no guilt.

Anything to say: Two words, GOOD LUCK.

I guess I'd be going through this Fighting Guilt 101