please help me (demi lovato fanfic discontinued)

chapter nine

Amara's POV

on our way down stairs hand in hand all I could think about was how perfect this is right now. but a little part of me was still thinking about weather or not I should eat ... "so what do you want for breakfast baby??" hannah said smiling "umm maybe just some toast or something I'm not that hungry this morning" I replied somewhat shamefully . she gave me a suspicious look but then nodded and begin making some toast and little bowls of cereal. after we finished I took our bowls and began washing them while hannah wiped of the counters and table . when we were finished we made our way to the couch cuddled in each others arms. "what movie do you wanna watch?" I asked "uuuummmmm silent hill??" she replied with a cheesey smile . she knew how scared I got. i chuckled a little chuckle and began putting on the movie

Hannah's POV.

as we were watching the movie Amara would hide her face in my chest here and there. I would give off a little laugh each time she did . I knew that she gets scared easily so I had to!! "it's ok it's just a movie" I said laughing from how hard she jumped . "A SCARY MOVIE!!!!" she replied laughing and in a scared tone all at once .

after the movie *

she was still sort of scared so of coarse I had to mess with her .

" hey babe I'm gonna go upstairs for a blanket . I'll be right back" I said getting up and running up stairs . as I got up there I set me phone on the dresser sitting up towards the closet and pressed record . " hey babe I can't reach the blanket can you come help me!?" I yelled down the stairs . we all knew Amara has a way of reaching high things although she wasn't the tallest person. "yah I'll be right up!" I herd her yell back. as she came through the door I jumped out at her and scared her . she screamed a super high pitched scream. "your face was priceless!!" I said falling to the floor in laughter "that was not funny!" she said chucking . "which is why your laughing to?" I said in a sassy tone. "ugh shut up whatever" she replied trying to sound cool. "so do you want the blanket or not?" she said smirking . "yes I do" I said trying to catch my breath from laughing . as she got the blanket down I grabbed my phone and then we headed back downstairs and watched spongebob so she wouldn't be scared. we both eventually fell asleep for a couple of hours

Amara's

I woke up a couple of hours later . it was almost five so I figured I would go eat a snack or something and let hannah sleep. I was still kind of confused if I should eat something or not . I decided I'll eat something small and then take a shower. I made a half a sandwich and put the other half

away for hannah when she wakes up. As I was eating I was scrolling through twitter and Instagram . I go and see that demi lovato tweeted about her concert coming up in two days. THAT IM GOING TO I MIGHT ADD!!!!! after I stalked her and her family for a little bit I finished my sandwich and started feeling a twisted feeling in my stomach. I headed towards the bathroom . passing the living room to make sure that hannah was still asleep. as I suspected she was sound asleep on the couch . as I entered the bathroom I still felt that feeling and it kind of started to hurt . I have never really purged before but who knows maybe today is the day I do it again.... I looked at my reflection and noticed my collar bones and hip bones weren't as prominent as they used to be . I was hesitant but shoved to fingers as far down my throat as I could throwing up everything I ate today. I brushed me teeth and looked at my bloodshot eyes . I put some eye drops In she hannah wouldn't notice anything . I felt so bad after I did it . 'don't feel bad Amara it will make you feel better don't worry' oh no... no not again. please no why can't you just leave me alone . I thought to myself. 'you know you want to do this Amara no one will care . just do it you know you want to' I tried to fight them off but I gave in. I grabbed my razor blade and made little cuts on my wrist. I made deeper ones further down my arm. I stopped when I noticed my deepest cut I've done stitched up. I decided to cut on my stomach. I cut quite deep. I made seven deep cuts on my sides as well. after I got all the blood to stop I grabbed my con sealer and covered my arm. even though it burned I had to get it covered so hannah wouldn't see. I walked out of the bathroom and I noticed that hannah had woken up. I felt a rush of nervousness run over me when she made her way towards me . "hey baby" she said missing my lips . "hey" I said barely kissing back. "what's wrong" she says with worried eyes "nothing I'm fine I just am still a little tired" she gave me that 'are you kidding me' look and I gave her a reassuring smile so she though everything was ok "what do you want for dinner?" she asked me "um I'm not really hungry so I'm

just going to head upstairs and take a shower. she nodded and headed towards the kitchen while I took my shower. although my skin was burning from the hot water . I took long shower and slowly started making my way towards the bedroom