Problems

My First Relationship(The Aftermath)

So this first chapter is about how I was tried to be the bigger person after about 9 months of being broken up. But really this whole time I realised I was trying to avoid the reality of the situation. I was acting like it wasn't a big deal but it was. Anyways this chapter is just gonna be the message history. No names will be disclosed in this. 

11/21/17

Me: Why are you ignoring me dude?

Me: I know that you're online rn...

Me: Why the heck don't you wanna talk to me for? Did I do something to you? If I did please tell me.

Me: Please answer me...

Me: I'm not gonna stop texting you and you know that. I'm gonna text you everyday until you answer

Me: Ttyl i guess.

11/22/17

Them: Hey

Me: Hey...

Me (Being a passive aggressive asshole): Seriously why do you keep on ignoring me? Like I don't know what I did.

Me: ...

Me: please don't ignore me....

Them: It's just I'm still hurting even though I moved on

Me: Then talk about it dude, you can't keep those feelings in. It's not healthy

Me: You know I'm willing to help you in any way I can

Me: Like seriously I'm still here for you no matter what happens

Me: I'm willing to do anything for you..

Them: Idk it's just I don't know if I can talk. You were my first real love and it hurts to think about you.

Them: Plus I just don't know what to say anymore. There is so much I want to tell you but I'm scared and you probably wouldn't care anyways

Them: Plus I'm used to bottling up my feelings. Ik it's not healthy but it's the only thing that is keeping me from going crazy

Them: Well completely crazy

Me: Dude I care ok. You don't think i talk about you ever. I'm driving ppl crazy talking about you.

Me: I swear you don't read these messages all the way through sometimes, I clearly care about you.

Me: I want you to be able to talk to me about things, you may think I don't care but I do, DEEPLY.

Me: For the past two months I've been driving ppl crazy because I won't shut up about you. You worry me so much. I don't there are any words for how much care about you. To me you are family and for you to just close yourself off to me it saddens me because I feel like you don't trust me. I want you to be in my life believe it or not. We may not be in relationship but I still love you no matter what.

Me (Being passive aggressive again): You were one of my best friends and you just left kinda

Me: You are one of the closest people to me in my life, I don't have many of those

Me: You can't just push your emotions to the side, you're just gonna hurt yourself even more

Me: I want, no I NEED you to realize that please. I don't wanna see you hurt anymore