The first time I laid eyes on you, I knew... I just knew at that moment; it was going to lead to something. I know it cant be anymore than it is already, but I just cant help myself. I want you. I need you. I cant imagine what my life would be without you.
Even if we did become nothing more... I would still be happy that I have you in my life. That's all that matters to me. I wouldn't want it any other way. At first I was so scared to even talk to you. It was like I froze, I didn't know what to do. YOU WAS JUST TOO GOD DAMN PERFECT. You always will be too. I know one day I will eventually get hurt by my obsession over you, but that's not the point. Its your fault. I hold you fully responsible. Its just inhumane how you can think that its normal. You know fine well I'm head over heals for you. Yet, you still want to punish me.. with your stupidly perfect personality, cute face and urgh just you.
Why did it have to be you. Why you? Of all the people in this world, my stupid good for nothing heart fell for you. There's nothing that I can do to control the way I feel. Its making me insane, I cant stop thinking about you. You are always on my mind. I want you, I know my obsession for you isn't normal. I stalk your profile, I talk about you and only you... WHY IS IT ALWAYS ABOUT YOU?! I love your smell, the way you dress, talk. I even try to be like you now. I cant over come my feelings, they are just too strong. The more I talk to you the worse it gets. The thing is you will never know how I feel about you though. Its stupid I am so madly in love with you, yet I cant even express the way I feel to you.
My friends all know I love you, they think this is normal but if they really knew. What would they think of me then? Would they still be my friends or just think of me as an utter creep. They are all so good to me, but how much of my obsession can I tell them before it gets to much for them. You see everyone is fake in this world there is no other way around it. We all fall for each others bullshit lies and back-stab one another no matter how close we may be to one another. Its just a awful world we live in today... Survival of the fittest as most would call it. We are all alone in this world yet we need someone to be with us and to fill our hearts with 'love'. Love doesn't exist? But if that's the case then why am I telling myself I'm in love with you. It just doesn't make sense.
I would die for you.
I'd give up my life for another person... is that love? Every life is precious and for one to admit they would die for another? I don't understand it. Humans are selfish creatures. We would give our life for someone else over this so called 'love'. It doesn't faze them. That's what they want you to feel for them. Yet things like this really happen! A life is taken for loved ones all the time. How wrong is that? They call this love. I call in madness! Though I would do it for you any day... i'm such a hypocrite. Its just such a big contradiction, but that's what love is right? Its really just an evil thing that confuses us and play with our emotions. We wont stop loving though as its a human function. They say we cant live without it. However can we live with it?
