The Lost Girl, Now Found

13) I Can't

Trigger Warning (I find this chapter Mature, so read at your own risk, but it holds some pretty important details)

Emma's POV

I've been awake for a couple of hours now, it's getting late, my family's probably gonna head out soon. I saw that Henry fell asleep in the chair, he looks so cute, but he should be in an actual bed. "Hey guys, it's getting late, don't you think you should probably head home"

"Yeah, David you should take Henry home... Our home, I'll call the foster home and tell them" my mom told him and he nodded his head and came over to me and kissed me on the forehead.

"I actually meant all of you, you guys need rest, just as much as I do"

"Em, I'm only agreeing to leave because I know that you won't be alone, you'll be with your mother" my dad told me

"And if she left as well, I wouldn't be alone, there are plenty of doctors here"

"I'm not leaving unless your mother stays" I roll my eyes in defeat.

"Fine" my dad picked Henry up and left the room. "You could ask one of the nurses for a cot to sleep in for the night, so that you don't have to sleep on a chair or on the floor"

She left the room and came back a few minutes later with a nurse helping her carry the cot in, then the nurse pulled a syringe out of her pocket and tried putting something in my IV, key word, tried. When she pulled it out of her pocket, she started coming towards me. "What's that?"

"It's medication"

"Really? I had no clue!" I said to her sarcastically, both her and my mom looked at me completely un-amused. "Sorry" I told her knowing that they didn't find my sarcasm funny, even though it was hilarious. "What is the medication for?"

"The doctor asked me to sedate you, he said you need some-"

"No, I don't wanna be sedated!" I yelled, kind of freaking out. "Sorry... I didn't mean to yell, but you're not putting me to sleep"

My mom walked over to me and grabbed my hand. "Emma-"

"No! They aren't putting me to sleep again!"

"I'm sorry Miss Swan, but I have to follow the doctors orders" she said while trying to inject the medication into my IV.

I quickly pulled the IV out of my arm, not factoring in that the IV was administering the morphine. Almost immediately after I pulled it out, I was in pain, but I acted like I wasn't because I am not being put to sleep. "Please, I can't go back to sleep" I told her, now crying.

"Emma look at me" my mom said, probably trying to get me to look away from the syringe so she can give it to me.

"No, that medication is not going to be given to me!"

"Miss Swan, if you don't allow me to administer the medication, I'm going to have to call orderlies in to hold you down"

"That is not going to happen!" My mom yelled to her, but it didn't stop the way I was feeling. I was having a hard time breathing, my chest hurts worse than it already did, I'm dizzy, I can't control anything I'm feeling right now, soon enough I started to hyperventilate. "Emma, what's wrong??"

"I. Can't. Breathe." I said in between my gasps for air.

"What's happening???" My mom nervously asked the nurse.

"She's having another panic attack! Emma I need you to take a deep breath" the nurse told me, while readjusting the bed so I'm lying flat instead of being propped up.

I shake my head. "I. Can't."

"Emma, you have to, take a deep breath" I try doing as she says, but it's not working, then I feel a small pinch in my leg and I look up. "No... No. I. Can't. Go. To. Sleep." She injecting the medication into my leg and then I felt myself fall into a deep sleep.

I wake up to pain, I open my eyes to see, no... I'm back in the mines, and Walsh, he's drunk, that means I'm going to relive the one thing I wasn't ready to tell my mom about. "I said no sleeping! Do you enjoy being punished?! I guess I'll just have to show you that I'm serious!"

"No Walsh, please just stop kicking me, I didn't mean to fall asleep, I'm just so tired" I told him, refusing to let myself cry again

"Okay, I'll stop kicking you, but only so we can have a little fun" he told me with a smirk on his face.

"W-what do you mean fun?" I ask terrified of what he'll do to me.

He takes his shirt off. "I mean I'll have fun and you'll cry for the mommy that you don't have!"

"W-Walsh please don't do this! You don't have to do this! I won't go back to sleep! I promise!"

"Too late baby" he undoes his belt and takes his pants off, he is now only in his boxers. "Your turn" he said smiling. "Are you scared?" He asked, obviously enjoying the terror in my eyes.

"Please Walsh, don't do this" he comes closer to me and unbuttons my shirt. "Stop Walsh! Please!" I beg him, trying to control the tears that are streaming down my face, but failing miserably.

After successfully unbuttoning my shirt, he un-clips my bra, then he just stares at me while I cry begging for him to stop and he laughs. "I'm not going to stop, so you might as well stop asking" he's such a sick bastard.

He then moved towards my pants and my legs aren't tied up, so I kick him. "Get away from me!"

"You bitch!" He slaps me across the face and roughly pull my jeans and panties off of me.

"Walsh! Just stop!! Please!!!" He responds with an mischievous laugh.

"Not gonna happen!" He yells, then he forces himself on me and I was yelling and screaming and crying, but no one heard me... No one.

"Walsh, no!! Get off of me! Walsh!! Please!! Just- Just stop, please!!!"

I feel someone shaking me awake "Emma! Wake up!"

"Emma wake up!" I hear my mom say.

"Walsh, no!! Get off of me! Walsh!! Please!! Just- Just stop, please!!!" I say, accidentally.

I jolt up realizing I'm now awake and I cry, I can feel the sobs racking through my body.

"Emma! You're okay! You're safe now!" She says, pulling me into a hug and I cry into her shoulder.

"I-I didn't tell you everything..." I tell her reluctantly.

"That's okay Emma, just tell me when you're ready"

"I- I think I'm ready"

"Okay, what is it?" She must not have totally heard what I said.

"Walsh, he... H-he forced me to... he... Mary Margaret, Walsh raped me" I told her, not trying to hold back any tears.

She doesn't say anything, she just looks at me, she looks angry. Could she be mad at me? Then out of nowhere, she pulls me into another hug. Then I let out a breath that I wasn't even aware I was holding, I was relieved to know that the wasn't angry at me. I honestly can't even believe that I thought that she would be mad.

"When are David and Henry gonna be here?" I need to tell David... He's gonna kill Walsh.

"Should be any minute now" And as if on cue my son and my dad knock on the door.

"Come in"

"Hey mom!" My heart still melts and the sound of Henry calling me mom. Henry comes over and hugs me.

"Hey kid, I need to talk to David about something, how about you and Mary Margaret go get something to eat or go for a walk around the hospital" Henry understood and him and my mom left the room.