Those Words That Didn't Reached
11:22 am 05/07/2014
I don't know why... Ever since that day...
I always mumble to myself the words "I'm sorry".
Yet, I have no guts to say it to him face to face.
I know he already moved on and has already forgiven me, but, why do I feel so guilty..?
I'm sorry, I'm a backstabber.
I'm sorry, I broke my promise to you.
I'm sorry, if I lied to you.
I'm sorry, if I wasn't a good friend to you.
I'm sorry for the times I talk behind your back.
I'm sorry, for I feel so guilty about our broken friendship.
I'm sorry, I... no, I will not make any promises anymore.
I want to be your friend again, and I'll do my best for us to be friends again.
I'm going to tell him all of these tomorrow, but...
That tomorrow never came.
I'm sorry, if these words didn't reached you.
I'm sorry, if I didn't told you all of these.
I'm sorry, if I wasted so many years hiding all of my feelings.
I'm sorry, if I was such a coward not telling you all of these.
I'm sorry, that you are now suffering.
I'm sorry, that you are now lying in a hospital bed on a critical condition.
I'm sorry, if I wasn't there to push you to stay out of harm‘s way.
I'm sorry if I wasn't there to push you when the car was right in front of you.
I'm sorry, I should be the one suffering.
I'm sorry that I hate you.
Wait, I lied again.
"I'm sorry, that I loved you..." Finally, I got the courage to say this... Damn tears kept falling. I regret everything... I'm so sorry...
"Why are you crying..?" He said to me as he caressed my face with his hand. His faint smile and his tear rolled down his cheek... His question... It just made me a lot sadder.
"Please don't cry anymore... I don't want to see the one that I love crying...
It isn't just you that is sorry for loving someone...
I'm sorry, Rillaine... I love you."
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"Are you Rillaine? I'm Allen's sister. You know, he used to talk about you, he said he wants to give this to you, but never got the courage to face you. He was afraid that he would be rejected." She stood up and smiled at me.
"Sigh, Allen is really shy at you, no? I'll go now." She then left me. I stared at the folded piece of paper she gave me, I sat down at the grass, now looking on his grave. I unfolded it and read the words written.
"I'm sorry Rilliane, if I can't say it to you directly, but I want to be your friend again. It doesn't matter whether you lied, broke your promise, or spread bad things about me. It's all in the past, please cheer up! You're always frowning and it's because of me. I want to clear things up and I don't want you to be guilty because of me. I want is to be friends again, but I think that's impossible, because you might push me away again, but I will do my best for us to be friends again."
"I guess it's really impossible for us to be friends again, dummy... But if you asked for us to be friends, I will never refuse, heck, I'll be so happy that you asked! Oi idiot... Why would you think that I would refuse that..? You... The one that I loved so much but I never got the chance to tell you how much I missed you."
END
4:19PM 5/07/14
Author's note:
KANADEEEEEE!! Hey feels
Can you please stahp
Plot twist: the one who said the last dialogue was the boy and is now haunting the girl xD
Wooo, 2 stories finished in one day :u
Also...
Sabihin niyo na, baka mahuli ang lahat nyan e
//shot
TAKTE! ANG DAMING ALAM NI AUTHOR!
NAGADVICE PA SI TANGA EH ETONG SI TANGA NAMAN HINDI MAGAWANG LAPITAN YUNG KAIBIGAN ECHENG NIYA >,> GINAWA PANG INSPIRASYON SA MGA STORYA NIYA AWOO.
Author: *blush* Oi! Wala namang laglagan!
Kung sino man yung nagsalita: Jeje :U Peace yow ^u^v
