standing tall

chapter 1

I've been looking for years to find myself where I belong I really don't know if to believe in myself, or to just end here my life was hopeless in 5th grade and I couldn't take it back than I almost ended my life but I didn't, and what if it happened at this new school what will I do than well I just have to keep myself up and hope for the best.

No one believes in me not even myself anymore i been through alot lately, people be so mean these days it all started in 8th grade everything was going just fine well that is what I thought at first but that all changes in 3 weeks I was, walking to class like any normal day it was on a Tuesday so I was already tired from my last class l, untill someone stoped me and at that point I knew it was bad her name was Kaylee, she than asked me "where did u get ur glasses at the goodwill store". At that point everyone around me started laughing but for what I knew I had true friends cause they weren't laughing after that I felt really sad but as I thought to myself It will be over by tomorrow. The next day rolled in we had all classes so I knew this was going to be a long day, my mom always told me to "stand tall and just don't listen to the haters they are just trying to get attention", but I don't know if that is true anymore just as I thought my day was going to be just fine it went from good to bad, it was in math when these two boys came up to me and started saying "you're ugly you probably broke the mirror this morning while you were looking at you're ugly self". Laughter again at that point I couldn't take it anymore that really hurt me alot so after math I went straight to the school counseler and told her everything I started to cry, because i couldn't hold it in anymore after like 20 minutes of crying she told me to come back if that happens again, after that day 3 days passed and you finnaly thought it was all over but Nooo it wasn't.

After those 3 days I was completly fine  not until some girls cane up to me saying I started a rumer for which I didn't and I knew that wasn't true cause they always said rumers about me that weren't even true, and no one said anything right now i feel like a burning rose with no life at all my life is totally destroyed by this one promblem. Well i let it go like always for wich i always thought it will help the prombkem but from what i figured out today, it just makes it even more hirrible than what it actually is. History comes along amd like always i feel bored in thag class but at least i have a friend in that class.

Me and katie always have a wonderful time one time we went to the mall since graduation was like a year from now but we didn't care, we went to the mall anyways but i don't like the way boys look at you when u have a dress on. Speaking of boys their is this obe kid named Edgar that won't stop staring at me in history but i just ignore it like always but for some reason his eyes just gives me that, i wanna date you kind of stare.!? Ok. It I am going to tell you the truth I like him!?

Finnaly history ended amd I was able to go with my friends to after school i always felt more secure when i am in the after school program, me and my frie ds always have a blast their one time, or multiple times we laughed so god damn hard that our stomachs started to hurt and i couldn't even, talk while my stomach was hurting.