A Little Bit About Me

Night and Day

I always lie awake and contemplate at night

Of all the places in the world that I might be

If I were someone better

or if life never brought you to me

I walked a less beaten track

On the run from getting made fun of

By kids that were megalomaniacs

that could get through the day without relying on shit like Prozac

that never got anxiety attacks

And every night they hit the sack

Because they never had to know what it was like to be a bit of an insomniac

You see I was cast as a social nomad

Eventually i found other outcast comrades

But every time they asked me to open up and I let my mind declad

My friends either couldn't help because they didn't understand

Or they went running and never looked back

So I withdrew into a shell that was ironclad

And found the only things I could say for sure I had

Were my thoughts, pencil and writing pad

[You enter stage right]

Maybe it was destiny because I don't believe in fate

Now looking back I can see that You propagate

Our partnership started like a professor to an undergrad

maybe it was more like You were King Arthur and I, Sir Galahad

No, I was a lost boy and You were my peter pan

It took awhile but eventually nothing was same

It happened so slowly that i didn't notice a change

Until i saw it in Your eye and heard You say my name

So the sun began to set and the inspiration You fed me began to fade

It became clear You were here to stay

i realized what you were and tried to get away

But it was too late

You had me in checkmate

You dug like a bug into the recesses of my mind

At the exact wrong time when the moon was on the rise

Under Your witch's spell from the depths of hell

You took control of my body and i couldn't get help

With the moon at it's zenith and the ritual set just right

You made me sacrifice everything i loved and made my virtues become my vice