Colors

Sing to me

I see Angel playing the guitar near our tent. I walk over trying to sneak up behind him.
I start sprinting and jump on his back making both of us fall to the ground. Once we get up I notice he looks a bit pissed.

"Hey are you ok"
"I would be better if my girlfriend didn't jump on me when I'm working on something" he barks.

I notice a paper under him with a bunch of writing and scribbling on it. As soon as he sees me looking at the paper he shoves it in his pocket. I got mad that he was hiding something from me and went into our tent.

I started humming, singing, and/or just dancing along to songs I could still remember. It was getting harder and harder to remember things. I was forgetting how to read some words, math was even worst. I was never a genius at it but I usually got by. Most books and movies were half there. But songs were leaving me faster than I could handle. Music, it was my life. I needed it to function, but it was slipping so fast. The monthly campfires helped but not enough.

I fell asleep humming to myself. I had a dream, one I wished I hadn't. I woke up not scared, not angry, just kind of relieved it wasn't real.

When I got up it was already sunset and I could see the outline of trees and the hills and even some of the rocks. It was blue and pink and purple. I started walking around.

I could hear Lupin grunting from the training field. He was stabbing his knives into the ground over and over again.

"Loopy" I shouted. He ignored.

I ran up to him full speed and the very last second I grabbed him and started rolling on the ground with him in my arms.

"What the fuck, I could have killed you" he said waving his knife around

"Yea but you didn't, and I don't really think I can die so"

"You don't know that for sure"

"Haven't died yet so"

"Your so smart you know that"

"I know loopy I'm a genius"

"So where's your boy toy"

"Pissed off for some reason"

"Why what did you do to him"

"I didn't do anything I just jumped on him and he got angry"

"There you go"

"There I go what"

"That's why he's mad, because you jumped on him"

"But it wouldn't be the first time I jump on him"

"Was he doing something"

"Yes"

"Well there you go"

I went to find Angel to see if I could apologize but I couldn't find him anywhere, I somehow ended up in the forest staring at nothing in particular. I was laying down on the ground looking at the sky when I heard someone walking near me. A knife automatically appeared in my hand and I threw it where the noise came from. I heard a yelp and turned to see where it came from. It was Alex. The knife went right past him landing in a tree but the knife scratched part of his cheek.

"I guess next time I'll knock huh" 

I rolled my eyes and got up to get the knife out of the tree.

"What do you want Alex, got tired of Savanah"

"No I'm good with her I just needed a break from reality"

"Cool, well bye" I started walking away but Alex grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him.

"Just, give me a moment please I just wanna talk to you, I miss you"

"Are you kidding me it's been almost a year since everything happened your still with that bullshit, you think you can come here talk to me and everything will all just magically be better" I yelled feeling my voice crack.

I don't know why I was so angry, I thought I was finally over this, over him but there was this feeling in me to just go to him and kiss him. But I know I can't, he hurt me, he hurt me so bad and I have Angel now it's not right. I couldn't do that to him. Suddenly there was this pain in my head like a bomb going off then in my chest then all over. Everything started spinning I couldn't feel anything but this pain. This awful pain. Then I was on the ground Alex screaming my name trying to shake me awake, but I couldn't, everything hurt, pain just pain. That's all I knew, that's all I felt.