you made me unbroken || larry

Chapter 12: Right Now

Edited: 12/06/2020

~Harry~

I stared at Louis and I's messages, a small frown forming on my lips

I'm getting kind of tired by Louis' constant problems with Stan, even on how selfish I sound, I just want him to receive all the love and care he deserves.

I love him, he knows that, but again, fear of commitment is in the way, I totally understand that he's having a hard time now and he might have a break of having, since the abuse really had a toll on him.

But, I promise, once we get together, he will forget all the abuse, all the pain.

I will make sure to give him all the love he wants, I will never hurt him, and I stand by that. I'll make him the happiest man on earth.

I fell head over toe on him ever since we met 2 months ago, they may think that it's too fast to fall in love, but with him, it feels different

I never felt this with anyone, the need to love and protect someone with all my heart, isn't something you feel everyday.

 And we've been close ever since we went out on prom.

I still remember the feeling of his lips on mine, it always made my heart flutter and my stomach explode in butterflies. 

He is truly the most beautiful human i've ever met.

I lay down on my bed and thought about him, I wanted to see him in my dreams, I wanted to see him again, to feel his lips on mine, to feel the love 

'Right now I wish you were here with me'

As I slipped into slumber, I smiled to myself as I thought of the one I love.

~Louis~

I did remember Harry, that once I have fully healed from Stan, that I will be able to love again.

And I know to my heart that Harry was the one I was going to love.

But my commitment issues and emotional trauma is really getting in my way to work things out, all the things Stan did to me was burnt into my skull, like it was stuck in there.

Like I know Harry is a great person, and he would never do those vile things Stan did to me, I know his feelings are genuine.

But the fact that we only started talking were two months ago, and the fact Harry  was known to have bad sides, was still scaring me

Even though me and Stan had been together for almost 4 years,

The first two years of our relationship was perfectly fine, we were happy and he was the most caring and loving person I knew.

Until alcohol was introduced to him, he is way older than me I would say he was about 5 years older than me, he became really alcoholic and then the old Stan I knew, completely changed.

The abuse got stained into my mind, like it was something that I can never escape of, I know it's wrong, but deep inside me..

I still have feelings for him.

But for Harry, since he was the boy that tried to talk to me.

 The boy that saved me from those bullies, the one who publicly defended me despite of my title.

 One of the few best friends I have besides Niall, and the one who I trust on all my problems.

It's just when our eyes lock, green meeting blue, when he touches me, when he calls me Lou, when he hugs me, when he jumps up and down because of his excitement, when he smiles and his dimples appear, 

Butterflies explode in my stomach and I always felt adrenaline in my veins.

I think I developed feelings for Harry, like not just a small crush, I genuinely like him.

I quietly lay down on my bed and stared at my ceiling

'I know I can't fight the feeling and every night i'm feeling right now, I wish you were here with me' 

'I love you Harry Styles'

-Araxx