It's lonely here in the dark.
I see my friends together, smiling, laughing, being happy...
Why can't I be like that?
I try and smile like them.
I do it for them.
I do it for her.
I knew her since seventh grade.
She was basically my only friend.
I liked her.
We had everything in common.
No sports, anime marathons, music time, conventions...
I began to love her.
I fell in love with my best friend.
That's why everything is so hard to explain to her.
I loved her romantically once.
I wanted her to be mine...
I wanted to hug and hold her...
But now, everything has changed.
I still think of her. I think of going back to how we were.
Friends.
Best friends.
But now, everything is slowly falling apart.
I blame myself for hiding from them.
I blame my past and my insecurities.
I blame my paranoia.
I blame my mind for not trusting her.
Forgive me, my dear.
I try to protect the ones I love; but for some reason, I end up hurting them.
I still love her.
I love my girlfriend.
I miss my best friend.
I miss you.
Return to me...
Please.
I know my writing isn't pretty.
Not as good as yours.
But I will say that I want to talk again.
I want to be friends.
Just how we were before.
Know that I love you.
You are forever in my heart.
I miss you.
My memories of you and being with you are too great to cast aside now.
I guess this is just me being naïve.
Is this how it feels to be naïve?
To think that you could forgive me after hiding?
How could you forgive me?
Oh, yes.
I remember.
We're friends.
Forever and always.
I've missed you, my dear.
I love you.
