This morning my dad was out at work. He was some sort of business man... I don't even know. I hadn't eaten in days and since dad was gone I decided to make a small breakfast. I got myself done strawberries, an apple, and a banana. I ate three strawberries.
"Who invented strawberries. I never fucking know what to do with the top part. I don't wanna eat it but I don't wanna throw it on the ground," I though. (Josh Ramsay from Mariana's Trench cx)
I ate half the banana and took two bites of the apples. I didn't eat ALL my fruit but it was delicious.
After breakfast I noticed a note on the counter.
"Don't forget to slit them wrists today Hannah. ~Love dad"
Damn my dad sure knew how to turn up the charm. I hadn't cut since my dad bought me new razors which was a first for me. I usually can't go two days without cutting. I felt a little proud of myself. Then, I remembered the contest.
I went back to my room and logged into tumblr. I had 1 new message. It was from the contest hosts!
"Dear dropdeadhannahh,
You are the winner of the Of Mice & Men concert tickets/backstage passes. We have sent them to your email to print up.
Love,
Host."
OH MY GAMMIT YAS. I checked my email and found the tickets and backstage passes. Shit... But if dad finds out he won't let me go...
I thought about it for a while and I knew what I had to do. I, Hannah Elizabeth Mari, would run away from this God awful home. I knew I didn't have anywhere to live if I ran away but that was okay. I could do it. The concert was in a few days though so I had to act fast. Luckily I didn't have to travel far to the concert either! It was right out in town. I could ride my skateboard down there easily. I printed up the ticket/pass and layed them on my bed. Suddenly I heard a door unlocking.
"Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck," I said hiding the ticket/pass in my pillowcase. "Good place Hannah," I thought to myself.
"Hannah! Are you alive or have you killed yourself yet?" I heard my dad ask.
"Nah asshole! I'm still alive! Good luck gettin rid of me." I smirk remembering my plan of running away. It exactly what he wanted though right? Me gone? Out of his hair?
"Shit. I thought I was lucky this time." I walked into the kitchen again.
"What would you do if I was gone tonight?" I said trying to sound more depressed than usual.
"Shit! Fuck you Hannah. You blended in the the wall and scared the shit out if me! You vampire freak! Anyway, to answer your question... I would party all night till the break of dawn," he said putting stuff in the fridge. "Why? Finally decided the bullies were right and that you should kill yourself? Oh and by the way, when you die I'm burning all your CD's. I'm turning your room into 'party central' amazing right?" He looked at me with wide happy eyes.
"Great dad. You can finally be happy. And I was just wondering." Wow. What an ass. Bitch I'm taking my CD's with me.
"Yep. Now go back to your room. I'm having special guests over tonight and I don't need your ugly ass scarring them away."
"K dad. Thanks for the compliment," I said walking back to my room. I went into my closet and grabbed my giant Of Mice & Men bag.
I started packing by dumping all my Cd's in the bag. I then put all my band merch in it along with my favorite skinny jeans and converse. I put in my phone and charger, and my laptop and charger. I also put in my stash of money I'd been saving. It was a shit load of money I had been secretly stealing from my dad for the past 3 months. I had about $600 dollars.
Later in the evening I heard my dad's 'guests' arrive. I waited until I heard him lock my bedroom door from the outside. I got the concert ticket/pass from my pillow and shoved it in my bag before opening my bedroom window. I turned out my room light and jumped out the window. It seemed peaceful and breezy outside.
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This Silence Kills Me
Hayran KurguHannah is a 16 year old 'emo' girl. Her mother was killed in a car accident when she was 9 years old. Ever since then her dad has verbally abused her with hateful insults everyday. Between him and bully's at school, Hannah has no reason to live... T...