50 Shades Without You

Chapter 34

Sabrina's P.O.V

The idea was, I was never dead. I had been kidnapped and David found me, brings me back, ahh happy ending. And the evidence he'd created was.. really believable. So, I got on his private jet and made my way home. I was greeted with paps and what not. The news had broke. Ella Gilinsky was alive. I couldn't help but wonder how my friends in France would think. David shooed everyone off so we could get in another car. I went straight to Sammy's, thats where everyone was waiting. I walked in, Olivia's carrier in one hand, my bag in the other. I didn't bother to knock. As the door opened I heard a shreak which I knew was Natasha. 

I was mauled with hugs. The last person was Sammy. I hugged him extra tight. Even Shawn was there. Looking fine as ever. Not the point. It was everyone, except Gilinsky. "He wants to see you.. just- alone" Johnson patted my back. My heart sunk a little. I took Liv out of her carrier. "That's my niece!" Tasha cooed and held her. "Didn't I tell you? It's Olivia Natasha Gilinsky" I smiled. She looked at me with big, tear filled eyes. "Oh my god" She sqeaked. Olivia got passed around until she started crying while Stass held her. "Wow kids hate me" She laughed.

I spent awhile there. I finally saw Alex and Natalia again. I missed them a lot. It was like I forgot what it was like to be around these weird, lovable people. After a few hours of catching up I had found out quite a bit. Johnson and Ceilia were pregnant. Johnson and Gilinsky were focusing a lot on their music. Everyone was doing suprisingly well. 

"I should go see Jack" I sigh. "We should warn you.." Aaliyah looks around. "Jack's talking to Claire again.. it started right after he got back" Shawn fiddled with his thumbs. "That's.. good for him" I nod and pick up Olivia. "Call me if you need to be picked up, okay?" Sammy said. "Yeah" I half smile and walk out with Tasha. She said she'd take me, and I didn't have a car yet so. "So honestly, boys? French boys?" She asked. "Um- no. I made some friends though" I told her. "You um'ed" She looked at me as she drove. "I kinda had something the last night I was there with this girl.." I glance for her reaction. "What's her name?" She asked. I let out a little sigh. "Silvia"

"So, you're bisexual?" She asked as we pulled into Jack's drive way. "I guess, yeah" I nod. I briefly explained what happened. "I'm happy for you" She leaned over and hugged me. "Be careful" She smiled. I got out and took Olivia from the back. I tucked her in tighter as the cold hits. I walk up to the door. My hearts pounding and I don't know why. Maybe because of the terms we left off on.

I knock once and the door flings open. "Come in, it's freezing" Jack takes my free hand to drag me in. I set Olivia's seat down on the couch and sling her bag off. "Hi.." I say. He suddenly brings me in and hugs me. I took a deep breath. He still smelt the same. Like home. When he let's go he goes over to Olivia and picks her up, wrapping her in her blanket. "She's probably hungry and tired" I say. "Oh feel free to- ya know, feed her" 

I chuckle a little and take her from his arms, sitting down on the couch. I start to feed her, all wrapped up in her blanket. "Oh I haven't seen your boobs in awhile" He laughs awkwardly. "Okay, literally just let me feed our kid" I roll my eyes. He laughs too. That sweet, angelic, laugh. "I'm glad you're back" He says, rubbing the back of his neck. "I am too" I nod. After a moment Olivia stopped eating and I asked Jack to burp her. "ME?" He raised his eyebrows.

"You want to co parent one day don't you?" I half smile. "What do you mean co parent?" He looks at me confused as he takes Liv. "Well, you're with Claire so I figured-" I shrugged, not finishing my thought. He patted her gently. "Can we talk about that later" He says quietly. "Uh, no. I'm back and so is our baby. I need to know what's happening.. at least for her sake" I watch him closely. "I don't w-"

"And if you're gonna be with her we need to find some schedule for you to see Liv." I add. "I don't want to lose any of you" He says as Olivia lets out a little burp. He chuckles at it. He continues holding her. "Then I think we both know your choice" I sigh. "Ell, don't be like that" He says. I cross my arms "I'm serious". "I am too" Jack sits down next to me with a huff. "I love you" He looks at me. "I- I love you too, Jack. But if you're not gonna be happy with me.. I don't want anything more" I slouch against the couch. "I don't know what I want" He says. "Exactly! If you aren't 100% sure you want me then I don't want you" I turn fully to him. 

"Y-you can stay here, if you want" He says. "No, I'm good. I talked to Shawn earlier and he said I could stay in his extra room since he's never home." I reach out to take Liv back but he pulls away. "I want to hold her" He said quietly. "Fine" I say and lean back again. I take out my phone and text the group chat. 

ME: i want to die

ME: oh wait too soon

SAMMY: whats the deal

JJ: oooo what he do

ME: hes problematic

TASHA: kill him

NATE: shut up im sleeping

I smile and Jack tries to peek over at my phone. "Whatcha lookin at" He hums. "None ya buisness" I click my phone off. "Well you smiled at it so it is my buisness" He squints. "It was all my other ex husbands" I nod. He rolls his eyes playfully but I think it kind of hit him that there would be no us. After all this work. "Do you have any coffee?" I ask. "Yeah, third cabinet" He doesn't look up from Olivia as she starts to fall asleep. 

I wait for the coffee to brew while I scroll through posts about me. A lot of people were shocked and but some were spectical. I decided I'd wait to post. Don't seem too eager. Finally the pot was done and I made two cups. Jack and I had very different taste in coffee. He liked it bitter and dark and I liked it as sweet as possible. When I came back in the living room he was laying Liv down in her seat as she slept. 

"Here" I extended the cup his way. "Thanks" He took a big sip and smiled. "Mhm nice n dark". I sat down with my mug in both hands, sipping slowly. "You cold?" He chuckled as I shivered. "You have a cold ass house" I huff and take another sip. He grabs one of his sweatshirts and throws it at me. I laugh as it hits my face. I slide it on and take my mug back in my hands. "You look cute" He smiles. "I know" I say and he just takes another sip. 

I stayed there and talked for awhile. I even told him about Silvia and what happened. "Hey, as long as you don't date a girl and let Olivia call her mom" Jack shrugged. "First off, I'm not dating any time soon. Second, I would never. Third, did you know?" I pull the hood onto my head. "A little. I figured I was wrong though" He told me. "I would not mind seeing you kiss another girl" He smirked. "You're disgusting" I hit his arm. "I'm kidding. As long as you're happy" He smiles. 

"Okay but, Claire, you, me? Whatcha think?" He places his chin on his fist. "Just because I may like girls doesn't mean I'm having a threesome with you and your girlfriend" I glare at him. "Okay, okay. Jokes, Ella" He laughs and I just cross my arms. We stay up until 2 AM when Jack scooted a little closer. "Stop trying to make a move on me" I push his shoulder. "I'm cold too" He throws his arms around me and pulls me close. I lean into him, admitedly missing him holding me. 

"You smell good" I mumble and he laughs. "I could stay here forever" He sighs as he holds me closer. "Me too" I cuddle into his chest and runs his hand through my hair. "I should go, though" I sit up a little. "Just stay here tonight, Ell" He begs. "I don't want your girlfriend to be upset" I tell him and he just gives me a 'bullshit' expression. "I'm serious, Jack" I tell him. "One night. I'll help you find houses, I swear" He rubs the back of my hand with his thumb. 

"Whatever" I give in and pick up Olivia. "I'm not gonna make her sleep in her seat" I tell him when he gives me a weird look. "I don't have a crib or an-" He starts. "I know. I'll make a pillow crib" I shrug. "She can just sleep in between us" He says. "Funny" I roll my eyes. "You're not even gonna sleep with me?" He pouts. "No, Jack, you nasty" I rock Olivia slowly. "Fine, at least let me help get you guys set up." He laughs at my comment.

Jack holds Olivia as I create a mock crib out of pillows on one side of the bed. "Okay, that'll be good" I nod and he lays her down in it. She does a little stretch and falls back to sleep. "She's so fucking cute" He smiles. "Thanks I made it" I slip off my pants, leaving on Jack's hoodie. "So did I" He says defensively. "Just because she kinda looks like you doesn't mean she's yours" I squint but smile a little. "Nope, she is at least half mine" He awkwardly looks down as I unhook my bra from underneath the hoodie. "Don't act like you've never seen me naked" I rolled my eyes. "I just don't want to make you uncomfortable by picturing us conceiving another kid" He jokes. I text Shawn I'll be here tonight. I then just get in bed and pull the covers up. "Goodnight Gilinsky" I say. "Goodnight not Gilinsky" He half smiles and leaves. 

((ok listen, if were being honest, 'I Don't Know' is not my cup of tea rn but that's just me)))