Your POV
It's now the mid of July. Autumn finally began, I pushed my hair back and hummed your song under my breath.
Awake.
The song you poured your heart into, thousands of feelings you tried to express.
I'm walking. Walking to the intersection where we first met, the day our paths intertwined. I mustered up all the courage I could get from myself and texted you for the last time.
We tried. Well, still trying.
"Jin oppa, I tried but failed. I'm trying to be strong but.. you're beyond my reach. You are like a star that I can never grasp but I could feel, and see. You are my star but I need to let you go. This is goodbye."
I heaved a deep sigh and bowed my head out of devastation. I asked myself if the decision I made is right.. I mean, you are far away. Far enough for me to see but never reach.
And again, I walked.
Walking to the park where we used to play when we were kids, reminiscing about the past, our past. But, you can't go back now. The good ol' days are now behind us.
Tears poured down. My knees were shaking. I covered my mouth to hold back the shouts that wanted to escape my lips. I fell on the grass where we used to lay down. I still can't accept that we are slowly drifting apart.
You are now a star. You finally made it. Your dreams came true.. Finally.
I cried, and cried. It's embarassing, I know, but.. I just miss you.
I whispered, mustering up the only energy I could find in my seemingly lifeless body.
"I need you."
But then an embrace was pressed towards my skin; the familiar scent that urged me to stop crying. The warmth which made me feel as if I was safe here. The place I considered my home.
"Why did you send me that text?" He asked. I felt your cold breath collide with the depths of my neck, sending shivers down my spine. In the corner of my eyes, I could see your hands that shook terribly.
"Answer me, Y/N." He yelled. I lowered my head.. I'm ashamed. Really, really ashamed, the tears that dried up started pouring once more. I bit my lower lip to prevent myself from shouting back; I was not in the right place to do so, anyway.
"Y/N.." His voice cracked. His voice was laced with desperation. He doesn't deserve any of this.. I mustered up all the courage to answer his question, but all I could do was let the tears slide off my cheeks.
Tears, and tears.
I wiped them off.
I forced myself to face him. I held his cheeks. My lips quivering in anticipation; as my E/C orbs stared at his own, wonderful eyes.
It spoke more than a thousand of words. Desperation, fear, loneliness and other feelings I could never explain. Words aren't enough to describe those vivid brown eyes.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, averting my gaze to somewhere else, because I felt as if I no longer deserve to lock eyes with you. I held his hand.. This may be the very last time that I can, anyway.
"I love you, but.. I tried. I'm trying to be strong. Strong for the both of us. I'm trying my very best to not hold you back. You finally reached your dreams, Oppa; you are now soaring high. My hands can no longer touch these delicate hands. I can no longer feel that wonderful bliss when I kiss you. That warmth whenever I hug you. I can no longer be with you because I can't fucking reach you!" I shouted as the tears poured down my cheeks. I felt so helpless.. But it really is true that I am just holding him back.
"What the fuck are you saying?!" He shouted out of frustration while squeezing my hands.
"You are the reason why I am here now. The sole reason why I am standing at that stage. If I'm your fucking star then you are my world y/n. You are my fucking world and I can't bear losing you!" The tears finally escaped his eyes.
"Y/N, I love you." He whispered as he pulled me towards him and hugged me tight.
"I don't want to let you go." His voice cracking.
"I don't want to. " He repeated.
I pushed him gently and gazed at his eyes, and caressed his cheeks. As I smiled weakly all I could say was:
"I'm sorry. Farewell."
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JIN'S POV
"Ugh." I groaned while covering my head with a pillow, as the alarm kept blaring; signifying that it was finally morning.
"GODDAMN IT." I shouted while I threw my alarm clock at the window.
I sat up and analyzed the room I am in.
"Argh.." I scratched my head out of annoyance.
"I need a new alarm clock." I chuckled lightly, shaking my head after.
I stepped out of the bed and walked towards the bathroom. As I was about to grab the doorknob, I froze for a second, trying to remember the dream I just had.
My phone rang, and I quickly took it from the top of the shelf and answered the call.
"Hey Jin!" It's only Hoseok.
"What?" I answered, yawning as
"You're gonna be late!" He said in a frantic tone, startling me a little as I let out a sigh. What a drag.
"Late for what? " I asked.
"For Y/N's wedding." He answered simply but in a serious tone.
"Oh, right" I quickly answered trying to mask the pain "I'll be there soon." I said then quickly hung up.
I stretched my hands and yawn.
I fought for her and tried to make her stay but she didn't.
It's been 3 years huh.
I thought while entering the bathroom door. I took a shower and quicky dressed myself up. I wore a black suit and partnered it with a black bowtie and a pair of leather shoes.
I walked towards the mirror and took a quick glance at myself and smiled weakly.
I walked towards my small table beside my bed and took the frame where our picture is stored.
I remember this day, we were smiling happily without the slightest care in the world. All that mattered then was you and me, us.
I closed my eyes and heaved a deep sigh "A sad tale between us." I whispered under my breath. I grabbed it and decided to hide it in the deepest part of my dresser.
So.. This is goodbye huh, I said while bidding farewell to the picture we took when we were in her house. The place I no longer belong to.
Tears suddenly fell down.
I shouldn't be crying. I should've let you go by now. I told myself as I wipe away my tears.
I closed my cabinet and walk through the door.
Before, I was trying to hold on.. But now I'm trying to let go.
"I'm sorry. Farewell."
