Believe (HIATUS)

5

(Again Friendly reminder that I don't know how the X-Factor works)

Throughout the week some girls were, well were eliminated I guess you could say. Everyone got separated the boys went off with Simon, groups went off with the Fifth Harmony girls, and the couples went off with Reid. So we don't know who was left from the rest of the categories. Out of the thirty girls there was only 20 left. Five girls are going to leave and I could be one of them. I mean all these girls are really good and they all have talent. Way more than me.

Demi would be stupid to let them go.

I'm going to be one of those girls.

Of course you are.

You're worthless.

You're not worth it (Don't even dare)

You're lucky you got this far.

You know what you need?

That medal piece you packed with you.

I know you want to.

You have to.

You need to.

I shook my head slightly trying to get rid of the voice. I haven't cut my wrists since I've been here and that's been almost a whole week. That's the longest I've gone. My wrist were starting to ache. They were starting to itch. I slightly starched at them. I pulled down at my sleeves starting to feel uncomfortable. I've been doing that since I've got here.

I looked around to see that Demi was looking at me. I then started to feel even more uncomfortable. Her eyes went down to my wrists. Even though they were covered with my sleeves it looked like she can see right through them. I shifted slightly and moved my hands behind my back avoiding her eyes.

"Okay girls. As most of you know by the end of this week five of you will be going home. On Friday which is a day away, the six names that I already chose. You six are in danger of being sent home. So the names I call out I want you to step up." She's going to call my name there's no doubt. There's no doubt.

She's going to.

"Samantha Phillips, Tanya Williams, Heather Timothy, Quinn Alan, Ellie Walker and Bethany Ian. The rest of you girls are safe for now and are going to the judges house." I felt my shoulders relax. She didn't say my name. She didn't. I felt someone hug me. Then a hand on my cheek. "Hey it's okay. You made it. Well to the judges house but still." I looked at Chrissy who smiled sweetly at me. She wiped my tears away. She wrapped her arm around my shoulders pulling me close. Throughout the week we became close. You'd think that we wouldn't get along cause of the competition but she was really care free. She said it'd be very cool to win but she didn't she'd be okay. It won't be the end of the world if I don't win. Her words not mine. She also said that if none of us win we can start a YouTube channel together. I don't see how will that happen but that would be nice. If we stayed friends.

"Come on Demi said we can go."

*

I was in the restroom since Demi took all the girls out for some dinner. The five girls left already and it sucked to be honest. Seeing them cry like yea it wasn't a nice thing to see but Quinn made it through. She's nice well when she spoke to me. She's nice. That girl that gave Chrissy and I those mean looks she didn't. But whatever.

I dried my hands but stopped when I felt that ache again. I pulled down on my sleeves. Just once. I need to do it just once. Only one time. Just one time. Then I'll be okay. I'll be okay. Then this stupid ache will go away. Maybe if I tell Demi that I'm gonna go back to the hotel she'll let me. If she asks me why, then I'll tell her that I'm tired or I'll tell her that I have a stomach ache or something. Yea I'll tell her that.