I see what I want in front of me but these voices make me second guess myself. They start speaking fast and in a blur making me dizzy. I want them to stop but they pose serious questions.
What happens after you're done?
Is that really a smart idea?
What if they don't like it?
What if I don't like it?
How are you going to get back and forth to work?
Is it even worth it?
How can you trust them?
By the time they are done I am defeated and what I want is lost in the words.
I want to walk up to someone and start talking to them, but I get afraid that they might judge me before they get to know me because of my weight or how I am dressed. I feel like I am being left behind while everyone moves on with their lives. I'm being left behind because I am too scared to make any moves to advance to where I want to be.
My heart races and I start to panic when I start thinking of something I want to do but also think that I can't do it.
What happens if I screw it up?
Do I even know how to do this?
Can I even do this?
What if I let someone down?
There isn't a moment of peace when it comes to these thoughts. I'm always worried about things that might go wrong, instead of what might go right. I try to justify it as thinking ten steps ahead but in reality, it's a crutch that I can lean on.
I wish I wasn't SCARED
I wish I didn't have ANXIETY
I wish I could be BRAVE
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Short Stories
Short StoryThese are just going to be some short writings that come to me. The cover isn't mine it's off of google. I'll publish each one as they are finished so stay tuned if you get hooked.
