Fundamental truths of growing up

Broken

My mum has always been broken. Over the years shes stayed srtong for us, but something changed after the twins were born, she started to become progressively worse. Everyone blamed it on the stress of having three kids under  10. I never got told why my mum got sick, I just grew up with blurred messages with recurring answers "when your older" I had to solve the jigsaw of my life.

I've seen pictures of her and my dad, they looked happy, and  at one  point, my dad loved my mum, but I guess along the way. he forgot  how he felt, life got in the way. All he knew was to kept going. It took the most out, on my dad  and  when he left, he took part of her with him  and she became empty. I could tell he was unhappy, but the reason why he stayed  so long was because he must felt obligated to, for us. Out of guilt, leaving his kids. He knew better than anyone, how hard it was to care for her. Somewhere he  gave up, he couldn't handle it. His way of coping was leaving, hers was vodka. Everyone has fucked up family. Just builds  character ,but I just haven't seen it yet.