A/n: this is so fucking trashy (edited cuz my gf made some horrible grammar mistakes lol)
9:39 am
Joji: Ayy best gurl how you doin
3:59 pm
Joji: We haven't talked about a month now so how are you?
4:30 pm
Joji: Usually you'll text back what happened?
4:56 p.m
You: Sorry I haven't answered
You: sorry bb ;;-;;
You: it's just that...I've been having problems lately...
Joji: What do you mean problems?
Joji: Tell me I'm listening
4:59 pm
You: Are you really?
5:21 p.m
Joji: Yes :( you're my best friend for 3 months gurl
You: aww thankss
You: So lately I've been feeling a little down well not little actually...
Joji: Are you okay? :((
You: I'm never okay lol.
5:37 p.m
Joji: Facetime now.
You: Alright
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Your p.o.v
I was obviously shaking, my head hurts and my eyes are burning like fuck. I was nervous of Joji seeing me looking like a pile of shit. I press Facetime and he immediately picked up. All I see was him in some kind of purple room and he had that goofy smile just like his personality. And his expression changed to a serious one.
"Sorry I look like shit..." I laughed nervously
"You don't ugly, you look gorgeous."
"Why...are you crying?" He asked. His voice was smooth like silk with the silent sad wind.
"I-I've been cutting myself..." then I started to sob.
"Why?..."
I could tell there were anger and sadness in his eyes, his expression looked hurt.
"Did you tell anyone???!!"
I flinched at him yelling through the phone, then took a deep breath and shook my head a no.
"Just only you Joji...just only...you." I cried
"I wish I was there for you Y/n...."
"why the fuck would u do that?...." he rubbed his temples
"It doesn't hurt though.."
"But still..." He gave me a sad look
"Joji?" I asked.
"Yes Y/n?
"Just to let you know I've been having depression lately...because I hate myself"
"Noooo....don't say that...."
"I actually do Joji, I hate fucking hate my looks, my body, my personality and especially my mind."
"Y/n....why would you think that?"
"Because i'm worthless to this world..."
I've been using my long sleeve to wipe my tears and cover my filthy lips.
"Y/n, who the fuck told you that you're ugly?"
"My ex... and my ex best friend....He cheated on me with her..."
"Well if they are ugly then they're hideous, don't listen to those fucking cunts and you shouldn't be even believing in that bullshit and what kind of scumbags are they??!."
"I know but what they are saying is true."
"no it is fucking not."
"There is no such things as ugly people only people who betray who they love is ugly"
"That's a little cliche." I giggled, wiping my tears away.
"Aww my baby girl isn't crying anymore..yay" he cheered
"But I'm still depressed but you made me feel a little bit lighter....Thank you Joji."
"That's what best friends are suppose to do."
"Cheer them up and not lie to each other or hide." he smiled.
7 hours and 17 minutes later you guys talked about memes and laughed throughout the call
12:54 am
I yawned a little bit and I see Joji's adoring smile shining through my dark scattered room.
"Damn....we've been talking for 7 hours huh." He smiled.
"I wish we could talk more but I need to sleep so I could pass my medical classes" I rubbed my eyes trying to be awake.
"Yeah and by the way text me everyday even if you are sad, mad or even drunk I don't care....I just want to make sure you're safe.." Joji said in a sad calming voice.
"You must do that too Joji, and by the way talking to you refreshes my anxiety thank you. Good night Joji." I waved a goodbye
"Good Night Y/n" he did a peace sign.
Then we both hung up. I turned off the lamp on my table and drifted off in my sleep.
Joji's p.o.v
I hope Y/n is really okay...
I wish I was there for her...
To hug her....
Love her...
and kiss her...
I just couldn't handle it when she was crying, whoever the fuck her ex is, I will punch the shit out of him.
it just makes....me sad that she has to be broken...
I got up from my couch then went in the quiet empty hallway then I went to my room, laying my bed with lights off thinking about Y/n then fell into my deepest comfortable slumber.
