Haneul's P.O.V
3 years later... (A/N: it's gonna take years to end if i don't skip the time ehe)
Sitting upside down, as usual. I heard a sudden scream and a loud thud which shocked me. "Haneul! Haneul! Haneul!!!" - Namjoon screamed, as i got up quickly because of the sudden scream.
"WHAT?!" - i screamed back.
"It's happening!!!!" - he screamed.
"What is it???" - i screamed back.
"This Friday!" - he screamed.
"Ah~ the proposal?" - i asked. He nodded with a smile. Siena and Namjoon have been dating for years. I'm happy that they last. Despite Namjoon's idol life, and Siena's business life. They understand well. I felt a stab on my heart.
Between these years, i started loving Namjoon. Remember, i used to just like him? Now, i love him. And it's burdening me. Some times it hurts seeing the both of them all happy and sweet. But some times, I'm happy for them. It's such a confusing thing. I don't understand either.
Even though i love Namjoon, no one knows. I've never treated him differently. Like example, some girls act all girlish in front of their crush or basically different. But not for me. I stayed the boyish me, stubborn, annoying. So it wouldn't be obvious to Namjoon. I don't want him to know. I don't want to hurt myself.
Loving him alone, is all good for me. Even though he loves someone else. I've never hated Siena at all. I always, maybe, adore her? She's pretty. She has a great personality too. She fits well for Namjoon. After all these years, i start off by seeing Namjoon as a friend.
Then as my best friend. After that, i like him. And now, I love him. But he's still my best friend. I'm the most hurtful person. But no one knows. They all see me as if I'm fine and nothing really happened. I didn't even tell Imo about the feelings i have for Namjoon. I know my destiny will be this way.
Like i say, loving him, without him knowing, is the best already. Years of dating, Namjoon finally decides to make Siena, as his wife. He told me that a month ago. He told me while calling. I cried silently while talking to him. It's the worst day ever. Even though i know that I'd never get any chance, it hurts in every way.
Namjoon says I've been very quiet nowadays. It's all because of his plan, the proposal. As much as i hate lying to him, i have to. Saying I'm just tired. I know he knows it's a lie. But he just decide to take it.
"So, you've bought the ring?" - i asked. We sit next to each other.
"Oh god, no. I forgot." - he said.
"Then? Go and buy it. Friday is coming in 2 days." - i said.
"Can you follow me? Please!" - he asked, pulling my arm.
"Why must i?"
"You'll be my adviser." - he said.
"Adviser?"
"Please Haneuullllllll~" - he whined cutely. As much as i hate aegyos, I can't really resist his. Because his aegyos are funny. It's not cute, it's funny.
"Fine." - i said plainly.
"Assa~!" - he cheered.
"When?"
"Umm... tonight? After I'm done with some recordings." - he said.
"Okay. I'll be here." - i said. He nodded.
"Wait. Where are you meeting her?"
"A restaurant. I'll only propose, at Han River." - he said. I gave a nod as i felt all restless. Sigh. It hurts so much. He caress my head and left. As soon as he leaves, a tear fell. I wipe it away quickly and sighed.
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Fanfiction| 𝙱𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝟻 𝚂𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 | Ha Haneul, young lady who is a bodyguard for BTS. How's her life is when she's a bodyguard? ⚠️ vulgarities START: 01/01/2018, 1st January 2018 END: 04/03/2018, 4th March 2018